Just after some advice on how to keep going

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Just after some advice for all you ladies who are likewise TTC. Bit of background, I am 27 and my husband tried last year for 5 months before surgery meant I was on antibiotics and steroids for a couple of months so we stopped trying during this time. After a night where we were too caught up to worry about protection I got pregnant in late august but unfortunately had a miscarriage in early November. We took some time afterwards and after some grief counselling, resumed trying in January this year. Medical checks after the miscarriage confirmed I did have PCOS (which I was expecting, I've always had the symptoms and every woman in my family has it) Since then we've been trying, the first six months we decided to just let it happen, no tracking or anything but nothing happened. I had a 74 day cycle last time so because I wasn't sure what was going on, I decided to start tracking BBT and taking OPKs this month and I never got a positive test. Im now 2 days late (although I'm not regular in the slightest so late is a relative term) but negative pregnancy tests once again.

Honestly I am so frustrated with the whole process i'm starting to feel like giving up entirely. I was put on the pill when I was 14 to control the hormonal issues I was having and came off it a year and a half ago when we started trying the first time. My husband wanted to try a few years ago when we weren't married but because of issues I had growing up I felt it was important for us to be married first. Now Im starting to regret that decision, it feels like I've wasted time by putting it off. I've tried talking to family members about it but they don't really get it.

In all honesty i'm not sure how to keep going, it feels like its never going to happen for me. Yet another one of my friends has just announced she's pregnant and all I feel is jealous which makes me feel like the worst person in the world. I also know there's a lot of people worse off than me right now so then I just feel guilty for whining.

sorry that's all a bit long I just wanted to vent really.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time TTC, it really is such a tough thing to go through emotionally. I'm on month 14 here and it's torture to see people around me getting pregnant. Feels like it'll never happen for us. My only advice is to keep busy. I find on the days I'm working or seeing friends etc I don't think of it as much. But I agree, it's really shit

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time TTC, it really is such a tough thing to go through emotionally. I'm on month 14 here and it's torture to see people around me getting pregnant. Feels like it'll never happen for us. My only advice is to keep busy. I find on the days I'm working or seeing friends etc I don't think of it as much. But I agree, it's really shit

Sorry to hear about your story.
I totally understand your frustration and the whole thing sucks indeed.
Are you being treated for pcos?
I don't have it myself but from reading about it and a friends experience, i assumed if you are ttc and it's unsuccessful they should prescribe something to regulate ovulation and cycles?

As for the fact that you feel guilty putting it off because of your past and wanting to be married, please don't.
You had your reasons for not starting earlier and it was a wise decision. You are definitely not at an age where you must start asap as well.

The ttc journey is unfair. For some it takes one time and for others like you or me it will take much longer... and it will be filled with a lot of disappointment. But stay hopeful, it WILL happen x

@SunnySideUp2020 I'm not, I was put on the pill to deal with it for over a decade and from what I've read gp won't do anything if you're TTC and its been less than a year. I keep thinking I want to talk to them about it but im scared they're going to tell me that they won't do anything about it. when the doctors said I had bulky ovaries in my ultrasound following the miscarriage and I said I had other symptoms they just said losing weight will sort it which I've been doing but having PCOS makes it very difficult to lose weight in the first place so its like a vicious circle. i'm definitely fitter than I was I've been doing burlesque classes several times a week (online at the moment during covid but hoping to get back to in person classes soon). my friend who's a dietician has given me some bits on how to adjust my diet specifically for PCOS so im giving that a try at the moment. Thats all I've been able to do. In all honesty if I have another really long cycle I might just decide to start nagging them about it