Fear of testing!

[Sansa87]

Hi ladies!

Does anyone else have the opposite of poas addiction?

I was ttc with an ex partner about 10 years ago, for 5 years, and used to always test.

I’m on cycle one with oh & I seem to have developed a deep fear of testing!

I’m 16dpo. My boobs hurt, I’m constipated, I’ve had cramps, & stitch like pain in my pelvic area for about a week now. It feels like af is here, but Nothing.

I’m just too scared to test, because I feel like it’s going to be a negative (it’s all I’ve ever experienced) and at the minute I could still be pregnant, there’s still hope.

It’s nothing to do with will power, I just can’t bring myself to do it.

We used clear blue digital opk so did everything at the right time, whilst oh has never had fertility tests, I had them last time, & everything came back normal, apart from having a heart shaped uterus.

I’m just rambling now, but I am surprised how much this has affected me. I need a wee, but again, terrified of going and seeing af has started. I’m starting to think my nausea is just anxiety from all of this.

Please say someone else has the same sort of thing going on in their heads!

I also had similar! I got my BFP recently, but took 14months of ttc. I never tested early. The month I conceived I took a test when I was about 5 days late. AF had never been more than 1 day late prior to that. I was scared to test but eventually the anxiety over wondering whether this could be it overtook my fear and I got a clear 2nd line straight away.

Do you know how late AF is? I understand your feelings, my advice would be to test once your emotions/anxiety get too much! Wishing you all the best!

I'm the opposite POAS addict.

You can wait, if you don't want to know yet and are worried it could be negative. The only thing I would say, you're building up hope (absolutely justified with what you describe) and if AF arrives do you think you'd might be even more disappointed the longer you wait?

How would you feel about your OH doing the test for you so you don't actually have to look at it if it was negative?

@Skyla01 Flo originally predicted af on 16th, and is now saying I’m 1 day late. The cb opk app predicted it for yesterday.

I feel like she’s on her way, I had what I call period poop pretty much straight after posting this, after being constipated for a week.

@NoCallerID this is my issue, I have no idea what will disappoint me more, and I now feel of I’d tested 12dpo or something, and it was negative, it wouldn’t be so bad.

That said, I did have a solid plan to test Monday, but I wimped out.

I only have one clear blue test too, I really should have got some frers

I braved it this evening.

Congratulations OP!

I have a fear of tearing, we tried 4 years and had negatives every month, then we had ivf and our first cycle failed. I explained this to the nurse and she asked me to do a test anyway even tho I knew it failed (it's standard procedure and I did know this) but it really overwhelmed me.

I've since had a baby via ivf and fell pregnant naturally, my period was 5 days late and my DH unknowingly pressured me into taking a test and bringing it downstairs with a room full of his family, that didn't go well. It was positive, which was amazing but I threw up with anxiety about another negative and showing everyone.

I completely understand this fear.

Tearing is meant to say testing, my phone likes to talk for me... 😂

Congrats OP this is amazing!

Congratulations op!

I had the same. Tried for years with ex.

Became pregnant with now DH very quickly and not expecting to

It took me forever to test as I didn’t want to be disappointed again

And I only ever took that one test

Thankyou!

I’m so glad that I’m not the only one, I felt like an idiot.

Oh wow! Congratulations OP, so happy for you!!

Congratulations!