First time I’ve posted so sorry if I have duplicated another thread! I’m nervous... here goes! (Sorry so long)
We have been TTC a year now and still nothing.
I have PCOS which affects my cycle length- anything from 21 to 50 odd days. I also frequently suffer from intense pelvic pain which is suspected adenomyosis (very similar to endo). I haven’t had a lap and whilst an NHS ultrasound was clear, I saw a private gynae last year who was 95% certain it is adeno.
Last year I was in immense pain and prescribed the pill to manage those symptoms and regulate things. I lasted 3 weeks, it didn’t agree with me and on reading up I didn’t want it to affect my chances of TTC so didn’t try a different one. That was last May, we married in July and I had to take Provera just for risk I’d come on in the wedding day as I was v symptomatic a few days before.
Long story short we are at a year TTC now. GP is processing referral which will be delayed due to covid (though I’ve had my bloods done and OH is sorting his sample).
I just feel so crap and alone in this. The longer it is taking us the more upset I am. The more pain I am in which is affecting our ability to DTD as regularly. I’m currently on cycle day 52 (longest for a while!) and have been in agony/ can’t eat properly for 3 days. For the first time in a while I’ve ugly cried
I guess I just want advice on where to go from here. I don’t want to throw the towel in but I do feel very poorly a lot of the time and all I can think is this is going to get even worse the longer it goes on!
I have told a couple of close friends but they don’t really understand. Haven’t told my mum as I feel like she would tell others so I can’t trust her with it.
Probably feeling a bit sorry for myself but I do wish my friends were here for me a bit more! Harder due to lockdown but it’s not hard to start a conversation/ ask how I am/ if I want a socially distanced cuppa in the garden. I feel like a burden asking them first but they know I’m poorly