TTC No.2 ....anxiety!!!!!

[Tammisaurus]

Hey,

So, basically me and my OH of 13years have decided to try for number 2! This will be our 3rd pregancy (when it happens). We lost our first. Then 3 months later fell again and now have our beautiful rainbow baby. Anyway, our daughter is nearly 4½ now and we feel like now is a good a time as any.
I've done this all before, so why am I feeling more anxiety about it all this time? I'll be 33 in a couple days, healthy, active and workout 6/7 days a week, rarely drink, don't smoke.
Currently on my 2ww. I have First Repsonse tests to take. I think earliest will be Wednesday (10th), which happens to be my birthday.
I'm wracking my brains to try and remember when I fell pregnant with our daughter. I'm pretty certain I got some implantation signs with her, slight cramp followed by a very light spotting. I tested 4 days earlier with her and got a BFP straight away.
As much as I dont want to symptom watch, I am. I followed my ovulation using app and my CM. Worked for me last time. Today I swear I can feel twinges...but I fear its all in my head.

Jeez, I wish i didn't feel so anxious about this!!! Not sure if I'm worried about another loss or if I'm just anxious I won't fall as easy this time round due to my age.

Please tell me I'm not going crazy and I'm not the only one.

You're definitely not going crazy, TTC can cause anxiety for anyone. But I do reckon that second time round you kind of know what to expect, where as when you're going into TTC your first it's all very new and exciting and you are only thinking of the positives.

Once you've already had a baby you realise that it doesn't tend to go to plan, whether that's TTC, Pregnancy, Birth or Parenthood.

I know it's much easier said than done but try to relax. If you find you're incredibly anxious then it might be better for you to avoid tracking ovulation etc? Sometimes too much information is a bad thing.