I feel like ik crazy. I've been with my partner for 2 years and he has 2 boys. 7 & 4. The youngest he isn't currently seeing but we are starting court proceedings once pandemic stuff goes back to normal. I've always been open about wanting to get married and be a young mum. And id rather be a mum before marriage as i want me little one there on the day. Firstly he says he's all for these things but when i talk about wanting a baby its always when things are better are after this after that. It sounds silly hurt i hurt inside because i so want my own baby. I feel he cant understand because he is already a parent. He became a dad at 15 because he wanted to have a baby and i guess im envious and that i want to have that too. How do i cope with wanting a baby so much when he doesn't? He says once solicitors are done with but first it was when we're settled then when i finished college. I just think it coukd be years before he even contemplates and i dint want to wait i also dont want there to be a big gap and with the eldest nearly 8 i feel hes going to be too old. Am i crazy?