New thread for the crazy gang - Part 5!

[Mumofboys17]

Not sure if anyone else has made one yet, hoping we haven’t got lost!! So made a new thread just in case 😊

@Beau20
@LV1987
@Danni2019
@Missgoldilocks
@WaitingOnThePositive
@Boo2020

Our BFP’s
@Sunflower2019
@Katie1109
@Fredthespider
@Quiffy

If I’ve missed anyone please add in!
Lucky thread number 5.... hopefully 🤞🏻🤞🏻

@katie1109 going to be thinking of you tomorrow. Sending love ❤️

@Danni2019 you beat me to it! Was going to say the same @Katie1109 we're all thinking of you! Xxx

Hope you're OK too Danni x I've only just finished AF now and I still feel shit! 😩

@Danni2019 I feel the same, then I feel guilty for having no patience with my son and start to think I don't deserve another (why do we do it to ourselves) but this is a really hard journey so of course we will have less patience. Sorry you feel like af is coming it is soooo shit isn't it 😔 tbh on the days where I try to keep busy and off the forums I feel a bit better, out of site out of mind I guess... But then when you're in the 2ww it's so hard not to obsess, I'll be there next weekend! Xx

@katie1109 good luck Katie!! Hoping it's only good news xx

@Missgoldilocks OMG that was literally me the other day.
DS has been super needy lately and wants me to play with him 24/7. DH is also ratty as works been busy (swear he's worse than the toddler when he's tired!!) and I literally just wanted to sit in my bedroom away from the both of them. Then felt disgustingly guilty as I should appreciate being a mum and having a good partner, and how the fuck can I be desperate for another baby when I can't even handle life now, but REALLY cba to put any effort into being a good mum or wifey 😂😂 never ending circle!!
But...tonight - the boy went to bed on time and DH spent some time exercising (major gym freak and obvs they're all shut) so I watched a whole movie by myself UNINTERRUPTED and ate an ice lolly, so that's a win in my book 🙌🏻
Rant over 😂😂

@Mumofboys17 yeah it's crazy but hard not to feel guilty. This time is hard on everyone tho, I'm trying to work and teach him and at nearly 9 years old he has soooo much to say 😩😩 haha it's hard!! I love the time but it's hard... Plus stress of Ttc we are all going through crazy times right now but we shouldn't be so hard on ourselves we are only human

@Katie1109 giving you a virtual handhold today. Everything is crossed for good news xx

Thank you so so much girls x I only came on now to say my scan is at 11:15 and seeing all your lovely messages makes me feel so much better x I’ll be in touch as soon as I can after my scan x fingers crossed I’ve got at least one bean which wants to meat it’s virtual aunties 💕💕

Good luck lovely xxx

It’s bad news 😭 only one sack present and one embryo but stopped developing at 6w6d 😭 I knew something was wrong.

Awww @Katie1109 I'm so sorry my lovely I'm absolutely gutted for you. I've been there and it's just heartbreaking. Sending you massive virtual hugs and we are all here for you. Take time for yourself I know words won't help x

@Katie1109 I still check in with the thread and wanted to say I am so so sorry for you. I wish I could send you some flowers or be there for you in some way. This is just the worst, I am so sorry. All my love to you.

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Oh @Katie1109 I'm so so sorry to hear that. I'm absolutely devastated for you :( Massive hug from me xx

@katie1109 I am so sorry to hear your news. I have only just joined the crazy gang and after reading back over your story had everything crossed for you this morning. Sending virtual hugs 💕

@Katie1109 oh darling.. my heart breaks for you. Sat here crying! 😭💔Just wish I could give you a hug or there was something I could say.. I'm so sorry you've been through this. Xxx

@katie1109 oh Katie 😩😢😫 I am so so sorry, sending you all the love I possibly can during this time. Its not fair and I'm just so sorry for you ❤️❤️ I know words can't do much but we are all here for you even virtually. I cannot imagine what you're going through 🤗🤗🤗🤗

Thank you everyone x heartbroken 😭

Oh @Katie1109 I am so very sorry 💔 I know nothing I can say will make this better for you, but know that myself and the other ladies are here if you want to talk. Take some time to grieve, not enough people do that after a loss. Sending lots of love your way xxx

Started brown spotting this morning 😭 why is this happening to me? Why?!?! I’m so heartbroken 😭

@Katie1109 I'm so sorry my lovely that you have to go through this. I basically sat in my room for a couple of days cried and binged watched tv and ate my body weight in snacks. Everyone deals with things in different ways but I had to shut myself off from the world for a couple of days. I was lucky in a sense that I was able to have an operation and then it was over but it's maybe not an option at the moment with non emergent operations not going ahead so I'm so sorry you have to go through it the way your are. A close friend gave me this little card when I went through my miscarriage and I just wanted to pass on the words as I still look at it from time to time ❤️xx

Oh @Katie1109 love, I am so sorry. I can't begin to imagine what you are feeling right now. @Danni2019s words are beautiful, and I hope they bring you some solace xxx

@Katie1109 I'm absolutely heartbroken for you and your partner. Life is beyond cruel 💔 can't imagine what you're feeling but always here for you x

Thank you ladies x
@Danni2019 the words are beautiful and so true 😭
I feel broken, I can’t think of anything else. And the worst is still to come. I’ve got an appointment in EPU on Wednesday so if I don’t start bleeding by then I’ll need to make some decisions, it’s so hard 😭😭 I just cannot shake it off, can’t talk any reason or logic to myself at the moment. Surely it stopped developing because it had some issues, so better to discover it now than later and have to make termination decision, but honestly my head just does not want to accept it 😭

How is everyone else doing? I've lost track where we all are in our cycles now. @lv1987 are you in your TWW now? @mumofboys17 and @Missgoldilocks are you 2 near your fertile week again yet? @LAnna20 did your af show up in the end? Sorry if I missed anyone else out x

@Danni2019 that post was beautiful ❤️
I'm only CD11 got another week til FW yet (normally between CD18-20) so just trying to take it easy. Haven't started OPK's yet won't bother until at least the weekend I think. X

@Katie1109 you don't have to accept anything. You just need to exist right now. You are grieving!! Get by on the bare minimum and do whatever it is you need to just to put one foot in front of the other. Everything else can wait for now. You're stronger than you know, but there's time for you to remember that xxx