9 months ttc so over it.

[Ails826]

Hello,
Im 29 my husband is 28. We got married in august 2019 and have been ttc ever since.. with no luck.
Im starting to really worry.
We started blood tracking 2 months ago, apparently i ovulate but we were allowed to take the pregnyl shot and do progesterone while i am on my 2 week wait
My sister in law is due next month and i am so so bitter I hate myself for it she called to tell us we needed needles before visiting and i dont even know if i can go and see her right now id cry!

At rhe beginning to told people we were ttc.. but the months and months its gone one i regret it so much so i stopped talking anout it or telling but now i feel scared lonely and jealous and alllll the rage !!!
Xoxo

@Ails826 I didn't even attempt the line OPKs. Judging if I was ovulating based on the darkness of the line would have driven me nuts. I'm quite content with a smiley face or no smiley face - simple! I would recommend the 4-day ones over the 2-day ones, personally. A much wider window to catch your ovulation.

Pretending you're chill about it is more stressful, at least I find that anyway. No, let me obsess a bit and externalise it, I feel much better that way. One of the great things about this forum is, you find out your thinking isn't unique to you, which is strangely comforting.

Sounds like you're in good hands with the doc, but try and DTD anyway, outside of the days she gives you.

For us, we were lucky and conceived on cycle 2. It felt too good to be true, catching so quickly (and obviously was, it only lasted 6-weeks) Goodness knows what we're in for now, but you're 100% right in your comment that this is an up and down journey. BUT, we can only continue to try!

Have you spoken to your doc about getting tested for fertility? Both you and your DH? Apols if you've mentioned that before, but it might be worth having that convo with the doc.

@jazzibelle yes we are working with a specialist right now
I am on clomid this cycle a trigger shot and then we will see which is weird as i ovulate every month on my own and things but im happy to try anything

My DH got checked before we did anythig else and its not terrible results but it wasnt great so taking this long is to be expected i suppose but we are on all the vitamins etc haha xxx