I'm having a little pity party. Feel free to join and vent!

[SaraT90]

Firstly, I just want to acknowledge that there are truly terrible things happening in the world at the moment and I know my "problems" are completely trivial in comparison, yet I can't help feeling a little sorry for myself at the moment. Venting on here because I'm too embarrassed to do so in person, on account of how pathetic I know I sound

This month was supposed to be our first month of TTC and I'm just so upset that we have (reluctantly) decided to put this on hold at the moment, for 2 reasons:

1. The uncertainty of the impact that coronavirus may have
2. We're meant to be getting married in the summer; however, we're unsure at present as to whether this will go ahead. If I were lucky enough to get pregnant quickly and the wedding had to be postponed to our provisional "back-up" date there's a chance I could be heavily pregnant and not fit in my dress (first-world problems, I know).

I know that these are really trivial things in the grand scheme of things but I'm just really fed-up at the moment.

Anyone else feeling sorry for themselves and want to vent?

I posted about this earlier too and just wanted to let you know you’re not alone! It’s ok to feel disappointed that major things you planned in your life aren’t turning out the way you hoped, especially with your wedding too! It’s a lot to come to terms with and while of course you can feel grateful for what you do have and know that others are going through a lot worse, you don’t have to try and suppress your feelings.

I get not wanting to talk to others in real life though! It’s just hard with TTC I think - so much of it is out of your control anyway and this just adds something else to make it all the more complicated!

Trying to be philosophical, take each day as it comes and have faith that things will all work out in the end. Wishing you all the best for your wedding and baby plans x

You are certainly not alone!

Whilst I am glad that we are all taking more serious precautions and that my and other families are safer with the lockdown in place I can't help but be depressed about all the things that my partner and I had planned to do this year that we now probably can't do which were:

1. 2 week early honeymoon to Japan cancelled - wanted to go before TTC so I could eat sushi but as it was booked for the 14th of March we made the decision to cancel, which I am glad we did considering we wouldn't have been allowed back home!

1. Marriage almost definitely will be cancelled as it was booked in for the 5th of May

1. We had planned to put our house on the market in order to get a 3 bed - currently unable and with a possible crash coming in the housing market I don't know what we will do

1. TTC put on hold as we are worried about doctors appointments, complications that may arise etc and with the current strain on the NHS I just don;t think it would be fair to add to it if we have a choice. Plus without having moved house we would end up stuck in our damp 2 bed as I planned to be a SAHM and we wouldn't get the best mortgage terms on just my partners income even though he's on a decent salary...

All in all it's quite the shit-show!

Just have to hope that the government gets a grip and starts to do antibody tests so that people can start getting back to normal