We have been trying ttc for a few years now. Tests have shown I'm in good working order, so to speak, but DH's motility is only 10%. Sperm count and morphology is good though. I've got my hopes up so many times, only for AF to arrive and crush me. I decided I wouldn't actively ttc this month, and we didn't, we just dtd whenever and I didn't poas to check if I was ovulating or anything. Then yesterday I got a sharp pain in my groin/abdominal and instantly my mind shot to "is this implantation pain?" and that was it, I've been obsessing over it ever since. I know in all likelihood I'm NOT pregnant, I never will be, how do I get out of this cycle every month? Its exhausting and depressing.