Hello all!
Onto cycle 5 of TTC as of yesterday. When I was still on the pill I was so blissfully naive that I would fall pregnant as soon as I stopped. Then by the time came to actually stop taking my contraception, I had myself convinced I had something wrong with me since in our 10 years together we had never had an accident when so many of those around us seemed to have!
Now that I’m nearly at the 6 months mark, I have started to actually get angry at my past self for trying for so many years to not get pregnant.. how ridiculous does that sound??? We wanted to wait til we were married, financially stable & tick a few selfish things off the bucket list first before having a baby which is where we are at in life now.
But at this stage of the TTC journey I’m reflecting back on all those pregnancy tests taken in fear praying for a stark white and just feeling annoyed! Even putting this into words sounds so stupid. None of our friends or family know we are TTC so I just needed to vent, and hope that someone else shares my ridiculous feelings x