Morning all, sorry to be a right negative ninny, but I’d love to hear how people keep their chin up when each month is the EXACT same routine: O, great OPK with clear peak, DTD like rabbits, take all the supplements, use the preseed, avoid caffeine, stay fit, sleep well, yadda yadda yadda, only to have a series of BFNs then start spotting and then have period, or skip the BFNs and still have spotting and start AF.
How the heck do I not get sick of this merry go round of hope/hopes dashed/fed up/ hope....?
TTC 6th cycle and was trying not to symptom spot, at least not entertain it too much in my mind. AF due tomorrow/Mon, yesterday BFN on easy@home IC but they don’t get the best rating online (hope). Lots of CM the whole TWW, sore bbs etc etc. Bought a Clearblue Digi and double check as once I get a BFP on a cheaper test I’ll wait a couple of days and confirm with that. Got home and as per every effing month, spotting. It feels like an evil joke and although I’m not superstitious I feel like buying the tests was just arrogant of me.
I am absolutely SICK of being asked when it’s our turn, tired of explaining that ‘it’ll happen when it happens’, fed up of hiding it from everyone close to us. I’ve told one friend who said if I want it too much, it won’t happen (k, thanks 😒).
Sore bbs completely gone this morning, crampy and spotting aka every bloody month. Told DH as he was quietly hopeful (I haven’t shared any ‘symptoms’ at all, I think the symptom spotting together is not good for us two, we get too excited together) and he’s crushed. He’s older than me and approaching 40, surrounded by dad friends.
I know there are far worse situations and I’ve made a list of everything I can think of to be grateful for but I have to get all of this out before I can brush myself off and carry on. Thanks for letting me scream into the internet void for a mo...
Any tried and tested ways to get back into a calmer headspace would be very much appreciated.