@StephyRose ahh yes, thank you, don't worry at all..I was feeling particularly down at Christmas but now starting to look forward to a fresh start and 12 months of possibilities, just hoping and wishing I will get to hold my babe either in my arms or in bump-form by the end of this year.
I think it's totally normal to have good and bad days, and you absolutely will have your little family soon. I'm sending you lashings and lashings of baby dust. I feel that TTC after a MC can be a lonely and scary place, so I'm sending you a virtual hug too, just for good measure.
I'm in the same boat - one of my best friends is due a few weeks after I was. It was hard in the beginning, comparing where she is and where I should be, but now I'm just looking forward to meeting her precious bundle and in my heart I know I will get to meet mine soon too. Of course we will never forget the babes we held for a short time, though, and I do feel like my first babe is my baby with wings that I didn't get to hold.
I hope you're being well supported by people around you IRL? MN has been a real help to me over the last few months, as have all of the lovely, strong women I've talked to on here, including yourself x