Will I ever catch a break?!?

[Lolly1991]

Hi everyone,

I just felt I needed to finally write something on here as it feels a safe environment to be frankly honest and not to be judged.

A little about me. I'm 28, my partner 32. Been together 6 years and have been TTC ( on and off) for 4 years now.
Have suffered 4 miscarriages during this, a missed miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy. Sadly this month I have just suffered a chemical pregnancy.

I am absolutely gutted! It feels like it's never going to happen!
I have PCOS ( which took forever to be taken seriously by the Gp, in turn I have struggled with maintaining a healthy weight - despite exercising and going to slimming world etc, the weight doesn't drop very easily. Another heart sinking feeling when all the Gp says to me is " losing weight will help you" - really not helpful when actively trying to do that, whilst trying to overcome to want to just binge eat and eat my feelings!!!

I'm not on any contraception, and haven't been for well over a year!
I take all the prenatal vitamins required. I just wanted to know if anyone had any thoughts of anything I could to help myself any further?

I'm awaiting to see my gynaecologist again in March. But feel like it's continually a waiting game - with no outcome!

Think this has all been triggered by the fact my sister in law is pregnant and all my in law's talk about is this baby! And it absolutely kills me. I so desperately want to be in that position! And it hurts so much when their family members keep saying - shocked it's not you two first! I feel like saying it's not without bloody trying let me tell you! It's just hurtful. But equally going on and on about our struggles to them wouldn't benefit me either! Because it would only be accused of taking the shine off the pregnant couple - yes, it really would be! Trust me!

Sorry, for my massive rant! I also realise there are women out there far worse off than myself. But I just needed to vent my feelings to hopefully others who can empathise with similar thoughts and feelings! Xxx

Hi Lolly, I completely sympathise with all you are going through for some it's such a hard journey to get pregnant. I've also had that feeling finding out my sister in law was pregnant with her 2nd its crushing. Myself 26 and hubby 29 both healthy with no known fertility issues took 2 years to finally fall pregnant, which I found out at 10 weeks was ectopic! We somehow managed to fall pregnant again a few month later and I now have DD. My point is please dont blame yourself or beat yourself up about weight, I was much healthier and have piled on pounds since trying for my first and now trying for my second for almost a year and i have gotten pregnant 3 times, unfortunately lost them all. I have long cycles around 45 days and I track everything from opk, temps and cm. I think this is helping me to get pregnant, I've tried all supplements and nothing really helped that I noticed. And I've also gotten pregnant stressing so dont worry too much about "taking it easy it will happen" which is the advice nobody wants to hear. It's great that you are venting your frustration and I found these ladies helped me so much through it all. x