There goes cycle 12 TTC :(

[Rosieposy89]

I may be premature writing this but I can feel AF on its way :(. We have been ttc #1 since January 2019 and not even a hint of a positive. I'm 30 and DH is 34 so GP won't test us until 12 month mark -so will book an appointment after Christmas. Honestly it just feels hopeless. I keep thinking I cannot believe we are dealing with infertility/subfertility or whatever and it all just feel like too much to deal with. I feel so foolish for starting this journey with giddy expectation and ending the year feeling a complete failure. I just know something is wrong and I'm dreading all the tests as I have health anxiety anyway. Is there any hope we might still conceive naturally?

Sorry for such a negative post, I just feel sad.

Aww honey.

I am only in cycle 1 but I can sense how frustrating this journey can be if I takes a long time already!

This is possibly the wrong thing to say to somebody with health anxiety so please know I have such good intentions... try not to worry until you have to. I’ve seen stories on here of it taking people 18months + and stats that say if 100 women all started TTC at the same time not all of them would be pregnant within a year. I think it was like 80%. It can annoyingly take time and it is of course going to be disheartening and I know I would feel the same in your shoes.

Wait until AF shows, IF she does and then enjoy Christmas and then see where you’re at xx

I’m in the same boat. Off pill since July 2018, actively trying since Jan 2019 and totally understand the sadness. I ended up going private for tests as was taking too long on NHS, this helped a little bit with my anxiety as the results were not perfect but not terrible either and if we are not successful naturally - there are options for us. Hope this helps. Good luck with your journey x

I also came off the pill in January. Unfortunately for me it isn't the 12th cycle. I'm currently cd74 and my cycles are getting longer not shorter. I've had only 5 periods since January. I have to wait until my period arrives to have cd1-5 bloods and I'm waiting on a scan. I walk round with the blood paperwork in my bag just in case. I was diagnosed with PCOS at 16 but they want to go through all the tests again so I'm also waiting on a date for a scan then need to go back at the end of January. I'm in a position that I'd love a period as at least it may indicate I'm not totally broken. 😏 cruel mistress this is, it really is. Hugs to you

@Rosieposy89 sorry to read your message, I totally know how you feel. I conceived in cycle 8 in February but had a mmc. I'm now on cycle 16. It is a long, hard road and there are no words to describe the sadness you feel when it never feels it'll never happen. Statistically, time is on your side and it could happen any cycle now. It could even be the next one which is what I try to tell myself.