I got a BFP on CD19. Scan yesterday at 5+6 with a gestational and yolk sac but no feral pole. I know this is potentially normal at this stage but given my very early BFP I would have expected more. I've got a repeat scan in 2 weeks, which will be the longest 2 weeks of my life, but I'm not even remotely hopeful.
This will be my third MC this year. I don't know if I can bring myself to even try again. The previous MCs plus my age will put at something like a 70% risk of further MC.
It's not even remotely comforting to think I can at least get pregnant when I keep having to go through medical and surgical management each time.
Not sure what I'm really after here, but I haven't told anyone in RL except my partner and although he's hugely supportive I can't help trying to shield him from most of it. I haven't even told him about yesterday's scan.