Can't think of anything else

[Emae26]

My last cycle I was obsessing over every little thing I felt and was so convinced it was my month and it wasn't. This month I have tried to be a lot calmer and focus on other things within the 2 week wait and it's more or less worked but today I have not been able to think about anything thing else. I keep thinking about when I'm gonna test, how my fiancé will react when I tell him, how and when I'm going to tell my closest family, how I will announce to everyone else... I've even been thinking and planning out in my head how I'd like the nursery to be... it's so crazy and come out of no where, when I've managed to keep my head so clear so far this cycle... only got to wait until Friday until AF is due but all of a sudden it's gone from a manageable wait to feeling impossible... has anyone ever experienced this where your mind all of a sudden goes into overdrive? Is anyone due AF around the same time and wants to wait with me?

I even had a dream about getting my positive last night....

Hi @Emae26, you sound like me ha! Although you're a bit ahead of me and I'm in a bit of a different situation - I've only been off my pill for about 7 weeks and haven't had a period (withdrawal bleed after I took my last pill as normal but nothing since) so I really have no idea if I'm ovulating at all.
I'm finding myself obsessing over it all and I'm really trying to relax and 'forget' about it as much as possible but it's so hard!! Hubby is of course on board and excited for a baby but I feel a bit alone with my constant symptom checking and obsessing over ovulation and periods and all the rest of it! It's a minefield isn't it lol. Literally spent years avoiding this and always thought my 1st pregnancy would be an accident? 😂 but no, here I am desperate for it!
I've had the odd niggly cramp feeling over the past few weeks but nothing else apart from sore boobs yesterday and today which is definitely not something I've experienced before so who knows. Maybe AF is on her way... x

@MrsF94 hey, it's good to know I'm not alone with my crazy thinking 😂 it must be so annoying not knowing what's going on, hopefully it'll all start to settle down and get into a natural rhythm soon! It is so hard to switch your brain off from it all isn't it? My fiancé is similar and tell me that he's thinking about different things about being a parent and having a baby are on his mind but it still feel a bit lonely because obviously he's not feeling any changes or wondering what it could mean in the same way. I don't think he fully understands how desperate I am to know, like he wants to know either way each month but is a bit more like 'yeah but we'll know by the end of the week, it's not that long now'. Doesn't help that I love to plan because I feel like once I get my positive I can start planning when we're going tell people, when we'll start buying thing ect and I really can't wait to start doing all of that and know it's not just me fantasizing about when it will happen, that it's actually happening and all in preparation for our little one.
I really thought the same thing about an accident, you spend so long being cautious and worrying about getting pregnant that you think when you do start trying it will just happen... but hey ho, it will happen at some point!
I've not had many symptoms but saying that I've not been very well for the last week or so, so any possible symptoms I've put down to that. I've also been trying so hard not to symptoms spot this month because I convinced myself I was pregnant last month and it made it that bit harder when I wasn't. Although I have found that the last couple of days when I take my bra off my boobs hurt for a while without that extra support, which I've never experienced. I've also been sleeping in later than I usually able to and am just generally quite tired but again that could be the end parts of being ill.
Let's hope the boob pain is a positive sign for us both and not AF on her way!