TWW driving me up the wall following first try same-sex couple 'at home' insem..

[SageFuzz]

Hello,

Just had to join to have a wee rant as have not told anyone what we're doing and my wife is at work so noone to vent to.

So a week last Tuesday we met a friend in a hotel and he very kindly provided a sample for us. I had fertile CM but used a bit of preseed too, squirted the goods up there and popped in an instead cup for 12h. Pretty sure I ovulated the following day. It all went pretty smoothly despite some expected awkward small talk prior. I've been munching pineapple core and brazil nuts to help implantation.

I have felt SO IMPATIENT. I'm now D9PO and weeing on sticks like my life depends on it- all BFNs. BUT I feel like I'm pregnant (even though I have never been pregnant before), I have had really sore boobs for days, hard nipples, achy uterus, emotional, am reeaally thirsty and peeing lots. The last couple of days I have been waking in the night having vivid dreams and feeling nauseous. I don't know if this is all psychological/PMS, I don't think I normally get these symptoms pre-period but I guess I don't really pay attention.

From frantic googling and reading other's posts it seems I'm not yet out for having BFNs at 9DPO though the clear blue early detection test I did this morning said it was 79% accurate at 5 days pre-period (which I am), which feels a bit like I probably am out.

In reality this is literally the first time in my life I have had sperm inside me (TMI sorry) so it would be a bit ridiculous if it had worked first time. I'm well aware it's likely to take quite a while... I really didn't want to get this obsessed!

I've been off work for the last 4 days which I think has just given me too much time to research and symptom spot. I'm about to start a run of 3 nightshifts (12.5hrs) delivering babies so that should distract me a lot - hoping it's busy - and I'm saying to myself I wont test 'til they're all over but I know I will. Bonus is my wee tends to be a bit more concentrated on nights!

There's not really a question here just looking for some support from other who are going through/have gone through the same impatience! I can't imagine doing this every month....

Hi,
My DP and I were in a similar situation except we went through the clinic. It felt really pressurised as there was one shot- not like we could have sex everyday or just keep trying every month until it happened. It was like this one shot of sperm has to work but then thinking all of the possible things that had to fall into place for it to work.

First attempt we were like you and spent the entire tww completely paranoid and symptom spotting. Second attempt we really thought it had worked and big disappointment when it didn't. Third attempt, we barely even gave it a second thought. Popped the sperm in then back to work and 2 weeks later casually did a text expecting no result. But it was positive! Expecting early next year.

We used a clear blue fertility monitor to find out when we were at peak ovulation as we wanted to inject the sperm at best possible moment.

Digital test was also negative even at 13 DPO for us but the pink first responses were positive.

So good luck :-) my advice is that if it doesn't work just try again, can take a few goes, and try and relax about it, I think there's some truth when people say it's when you stop worrying so much about it then it works.

@neverknowingwhy

Congratulations! You must be so excited. So good to know it can happen in a few tries. Thanks so much for your quick reply, feels good just to write it all down and know that others are out there. Also, thanks for your advice, all makes good sense and I'm going to have to think up some good ways to distract myself on my days off. Don't know if we're going to even manage insem next month as it's his bday day before I ovulate... guess I can only ask!

I found it weird being a SS couple as so much fertility advice and discussion is about straight couples and pregnancy so although I found stuff on here helpful, it was hard not knowing many other couples going through a similar thing with clinics and stuff. It's great you've got a friend who can help you out... it is so bloody expensive going through clinics and importing sperm!

Fingers crossed for you this month, but if it's not your time then hang in there, you won't even look back on the times it didn't work once you get the one that does :-)