Devastated - 3rd chemical since May

[Whyhaveidonethis]

I got BFP in May, then again in July and then again last week. I'm 14dpo AF was due yesterday. My tests have stayed faint for 4 days and I'm fairly sure that this is a chemical too. I just did an IC and it's BFN. I feel devasted. DP is away and I just feel like my body is betraying me again. I have all the symptoms of being pg but I know it's ended again. I'm 41 next month, have been tested and have a high FSH so low quality eggs and feel like crap. It's never going to stick. IVF isn't an option for us and I know that I should be grateful I've got DC already but this is killing me. We weren't even seriously ttc this month after everything that's happened.

I know I'm not 100% out till AF shows, but she's coming. I can feel it

Everytime I decide not to get my hope up and everytime I do. Wtf is wrong with me. I knew it was too good to be true

I’m so sorry to read of this. It is so difficult

Oh dear that's tough. For the future you know you need to stop testing so early don't you? It's just creating more upset.

It may still happen though, you only need one good egg.

I know I shouldn't test early, but in reality I'd still have got my BFP on the day or day after AF was due. I always lose them a few days after.

Hey @Whyhaveidonethis
How are you feeling?
Have been following your posts for the last few days and been thinking of you xx

Sending big hugs. I think I had a chemical last month too as I got faint positives on a few IC tests and a very faint positive on a Clearblue but they got lighter then AF arrived. It's really difficult but I'm really going to try not to test until I think AF is due to try and avoid the disappointment of thinking I am then finding I'm not ☹️

I am struggling to be honest. It's been a really tough loss. Heavy bleeding and lots more pain than the others. I also feel quite ill but I think that's unrelated. I feel like it's the end. It's never going to happen. Thank you for asking though. It's appreciated

Biggggg hugs. If it helps I think I am also going through the same currently. Tested 13dpo with first response, positive. 14dpo, positive. Took a test yesterday (admittedly with a cheaper brand) and BFN. Took same brand again this morning but with FMU and BFP but faint. 3 days late so should have nice clear lines by now. Got the cramps, like you i know it’s coming.
Nothing in the world more heartbreaking so really sympathise with you.

Did you say you’ve had bleeding ?

You need to stop testing so early. Wait until you’re at least a week past the date your AF is due. Testing so early at 13/14/15 dpo especially after 3 chemicals is just asking for disappointment.