Tww playing with our minds

[Kkd85]

Hi ladies do you think the symptoms we get during the tww are mainly all in our heads as we want a bfp so much. I have been trying to conceive #2 for 2 years now had a pul pregnancy in April and got treated with methotrexate. I jus feel like I'm constantly looking for symptoms in the tww and no matter how hard I try not to I always symptom spot. With my first pregnancy I had nothing was 2 days late tested and was a bfp. The miscarriage in April I took an implantation bleed but thought it was my period it was only when I was dizzy and feeling hot etc when the bleed stopped I done a test and it was bfp. I'm currently in the tww af due on Thur or Friday and I jus know it's gonna come but keep checking my boobs etc for any changes lol it Def messes with my head xx

I know exactly what you mean! I try my best not to symptom spot but it's like it's all my mind is focussed on. I'm due AF on Thursday too and have been obsessed with 'symptoms'.

I couldn't TTC last month due to having my MMR in advance of my FC referral and funnily enough, didn't notice any symptoms that month 🤔 x

Hello, I think you are definitely right. I was just thinking about this last night & trying to tell myself that I’m causing symptoms just because I want them to be there. Like @Each2TheirOwn I couldn’t try last month, due to my dps colitis & I didn’t have symptoms but this month I think I have had every one in the book!
I’m 10dpo today according to flo, due af on weds, however I caved and did a test this morning. Im pretty sure it’s a BFN but keep feeling like I see a shadow of a line. The tww does strange things to otherwise sane women!

@Each2TheirOwn it really is such a horrible time I think as hard as we try we can't help ourselves. I wasn't able to try for 3 months after the methotrexate injection and then I had a hysteroscopy at start of July so I had to wait to end of July before I could try again and bang convinced I had symptoms in August it's so strange. When will you do a test? I won't do a test unless I'm about 3 days late lol xx

@MountAbora have you a pic of the test? I never cave in anymore lol my head was away so I jus wait until af is here and when it will be late I will do a test as I put my head away doing tests and getting bfn lol. Really is strange when you know u cant try for whatever reasons and then there isn't one symptom the minute when back to ttc there is every symptom going lol. We seem to be due or af or bfp all round the same time ladies xx

@Kkd85 I’m 95% sure it’s just wishful thinking but there’s many half a line I can see where Iv marked out?
I don’t normally test early but Iv had so many symptoms (again wishful thinking!) that I thought I would give it a go! Waiting until after af is a much better plan.
That’s good we are due af/ BFP at around same time, the tww dies drive us mad so it’s nice to have other people to talk to.

@MountAbora I can defo see a hint of a line I see alot of ladies on here saying about the first response test maybe do one of them. It is really so nice to talk to someone that is in the tww aswell as supportive as my DH is I jus feel he doesn't understand the stress lol he is very laid back. I have a follow up appointment from my hysteroscopy tomorrow morning and she said i would need an internal scan to check everything and i keep thinking wonder if she would be able to see if I have conceived this month lol wishful thinking xx

And yes I do know I’m crazy and should be embarrassed of my behaviour

Aah ok, thank you! Maybe I’m only marginally crazy then! Il try to hold off until af is due now and test with a frer but no promises!
My DP is the same, he only really seems to notice when my af is due and can be disappointed then but gets over it quickly, whereas I spend the 1st 2 weeks of the cycle waiting for ov then the 2nd 2 waiting for af or BFP. Maybe it’s different for them as it’s not actually happening to their body.
Ooo I don't know whether they would see anything at a scan? Things would change in there in early pregnancy but whether it would be that obvious I don’t know.

@Kkd85 I noticed a brown tinge on the paper when I wiped yesterday so put a liner on thinking AF was coming early (I never come on this early) but when I checked there was only a tiny streak on it. There's been nothing overnight but I've had the same tinge this morning (slightly darker but still just a watery tinge, not like my usual AF spotting) so I'm hoping it's implantation (wishful thinking I know). If it doesn't get any heavier or turn red then I think I'll test on Tuesday.

I'm not feeling overly confident though 😔 x

The 'symptoms' are there during any tww you just don't notice them when you're not TTC. They are symptoms of progesterone rising which happens whether you conceive or not.

@MountAbora it's so hard isn't we jus time the whole month over ovulation and tww and its mentally draining. I don't think anything would be seen lol im jus clutching at straws when I had my MC in April they say bloods have to be 1500 or above to be able to pick anything up on the scan xx

@Each2TheirOwn sounds like it could be implantation I had it at end of march and it lasted one day it was like a dark brown didn't have it in my first pregnancy to was jus a couple of days late and tested. As they say it's not over until af arrives let's hope one of us if not all of us get good news this month xx

@taytosandwich I know what you are saying but it's jus so strange the way they seem heightened when ttc it's awful would be nice if there was no symptoms lol it would make it easier xx