Bit of background, I have DD age 4, DS age 1 and I am desperate for another baby. My DH is a bit indifferent about having another, some days yes, some days no (mostly those days are when ds is sick, being difficult etc which I understand).
I had a really bad few months after DS was born as I really thought he was my last. I felt like I was grieving for the 3rd child I'd never have and spent most of my time crying. Fast forward 6 months and I was sure I was ok with not having another. DS has since been a lot easier and sleeping better and for the last month or so i am back to longing for another child again. So I guess that feeling never really went away.
Now, I am so torn. I haven't brought it up again with DH for fear of his response being a straight up no. We would also need to look at our finances as I'm pretty sure I couldn't go back to my current full time work with 3. But I honestly feel like if I look back when I'm older, I will regret not having another baby (all being well that I don't have any issues getting pregnant again of course). I would honestly sacrifice so much to have another, meals out, holidays etc. I've even started using opks again to see when I'm ovulating. I'm going crazy with all these thoughts.
Has anyone else ever had these feelings? Do they ever go away?
Sorry for the long post