Feeling so sad TTC no 2, I need some reassuring stories to give me hope

[DrWife1]

Fell pregnant with my beautiful 2year old son within 2 months of trying.
I felt so so broody for no 2 when he was 10 months but wanted to go back to work for a couple of months first. Gave in to broodiness at 16 months and have been TTC since then ( 8 months now).
Every month that rolls round I'm so hopeful and start imagining what it will be like when j have no 2 but then my period comes .
Currently on day 32 of my cycle which is normally 30-35 days , having lots of right sides pelvic cramps pains for past few days and nipples a bit tender but no period and preg test is negative. Just know I'm gonna wake up tomorow with my period and crying sitting here thinking about it. It's just monthly heartbreak.
I know I sound selfish as I already have one lovely child and some people haven't even had that but I just desperately want my son to have a sibling close in age so they can be great friends .
I really need some positive stories to cheer me up please.

Also I'm still breastfeeding my son, not overnight, do you think this could he affecting conceiving?

Hi @DrWife1 .... I just hopped on here randomly and saw your post.... I don't have any reassuring stories I'm afraid but if it makes you feel any better, I am in exactly the same position as you. I feel very lucky to have my DS but he turns 2 next month and we've been trying for 6 months now for number 2 and it's just not happening....every month is bitter disappointment and I do feel lucky but I too desperately want a sibling for my boy! I think the desire for the pregnancy is the same whether it's number 1, 2 or 3 from all accounts....

I hope you're ok. Big hugs to you from me! It's very hard. We also didn't try for very long for DS1 so this wait is hard. It's ok to feel sad but you're not alone!

I didn’t get pregnant until I dropped breastfeeding to once a day. Then the next month it happened.

It's so hard to keep taking the disappointment isn't it . I want to not care but as soon as I get near when AF is due I start hoping and buying tests and I dont think I can take seeing anymore negatives.

I've night weaned the boob monster but maybe I should cut down his feeding. He's addicted!