hello, been ttc for 10 months now, i have 4 kids, youngest being 10. i was sterilised for 10 yrs & had a reversal sept 06. this is doing my head in, how much can a woman take, i see pregnant women everywhere, adverts for pregnancy tests, dreaming of being pregnant, thats the worst, when i wake up feeling so empty, im even getting on my own nerves. i just dont know if the op worked and thats what is stressing me out, my consultant said the op went ok, with one tube being better than the other. we dont have the money to have a laperoscopy, so do we just carry on trying, how much longer? cant see a point going to my gp as we dont get anything on the nhs, and money isnt growing on the trees in my garden! im 38 so i know it would take longer anyway. my face is looking terrible this month, im full of spots and dont know why, feel like a 16 yr old. whats the best way to get through all this, when would i ever stop thinking about ttc. thanks, dianne