Someone make this real please

[NightDreaming]

Was going to write “line eyes” but I’m not daft. It’s there. It’s really there. After a 3 year wait and a miss carriage at the beginning of the year at 11 wks. I’m praying to anything this one sticks. Eeeek.

So today should have been first day of my period. And this is an evening pee. I can’t believe it. We have friends over and i want to pop with excitement. Help me keep quite. But help me celebrate too.

Fingers crossed for all those trying xxx

I've been meaning to message, I've been wondering about you too!

We had the scan and saw the sac, which wasn't there last week. From my HCG levels my doctor said we wouldn't see anything beyond that, so we're booked in for a week Monday to hopefully see the heartbeat. It's all positive, but she dated me at just five weeks. No matter which way I look at the dates of when we had sex and when I'm pretty sure I ovulated the five week date just doesn't make sense to me (even with the large margins of error)! But I know there's been progress since last week so... I guess she's right. I've read on here other people were surprised by the dating scan so I'm hoping it's just my stupid maths and knowing that there's a wide margin for conception and implantation to actually happen. It just left me a bit flat, which it shouldn't have because it's good news! I just want to see a heartbeat I guess.

Sorry, very long answer! How are you? What's going on with you now, is all ok?

That is good news, although I understand your mixed feelings. It’s such a difficult time. And it’s not until clear scans and heart beats can we get our head around relaxing, just a little, never fully.

I’m not feeling great. Seeing the doctor was just that really. I saw her. Told her I was pregnant. Should put me in the system and just said to try and relax, that there’s nothing I can do to alter what happens. I’ve had on/off bleeding since with cramps. So I don’t have high hopes. It’s actually easier for me to think I’m miscarrying as I can’t cope with trying to be positive when it seems unlikely to have a positive outcome.

Please keep me posted on how things go for you. Slightly emotionally connected now and am sending so much positive thoughts and love your way xx

I know what you mean! This sounds a bit strange but when I thought I was miscarrying, even though it was horrible, I had sort of started to accept it. Then when we were told everything might be ok after all I felt more scared because suddenly there was hope again and therefore a chance to be disappointed! It's silly really.

Do you know when you'll have a first check up/scan? How do you feel otherwise?

I know a number of friends who spotted a fair bit in early pregnancies and their little ones are all running around now!