Am I to blame and will it ever happen?

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I am 35, with no DC with the exception of my OH's child. (whom we share with DCs DM).

In my earlier years, I had 2 TOPs, for reasons that I feel were justifiable and because of these reasons, I had always said that I would not have DC of my own, but now I am at that point where I want nothing more.

OK - so sex, is infrequent, but when we do DTD, it is usually around the date of ovulation, but I also haven't had the best experience with AF coming on time and staying the same.
(for example - I would have a 1 day bleed, 1 week before a 5 day bleed - so I was never sure and still not, which would count as the first day,...)
But this seems to have stopped as of my last AF.

I am due tomorrow, but every month I am just dying to know,

I am not too sure what is different this month, other than I haven't had the pre 1 day bleed
Usually I suffer with IBS and am a sufferer of Acid Reflux (treated as and when) and it usually becomes more intense right before my AF.

However, the last few days I have had a more severe painful heartburn, than ever before. this has since eased off after a couple of days.
I haven't got my pre-period spot yet (which is usually bulging out of my face by now)
I am all twingey in my lower back (not a period pain twinge though), and twingey what feels like under my heart.

As usual, I am probably reading too much into things and I will most likely come on tomorrow, but I could not resist getting the PT on my way to work this evening - do I do it, or shall I wait, as I know I will only be disappointed when it is a BFN but I also get really "itchy" by knowing it is there and doing nothing.

If it is another BFN do you think it is my fault for what I did before - I have done reading in the past and allegedly TOPs can cause problems when TTC?

I really hope I haven't screwed yet another thing up, with my poor decision making in the past.

What do you think - over-reacting / over-thinking much?

Oh and I have been to the loo for a few more wees than normal - but hat could be the extra water & coffee that I had throughout the day.

x

Not your fault at all but maybe more sex would help. I think they recommend every other day

Yeah I did read this and I guess I forgot to mention that recently, there has been more of it, especially around the days, my tracker suggests I am ovulating.

Maybe some conception vitamins as well. Zinc is very important and I think there are a few others
It’s difficult to pin point ovulation so maybe even more sex
A visit to the gp for advice might be worth it.

Thank you @Newyearnewunicorn , at the start of our relationship 6 years ago, we were at it all the time, but now, not so much, so I am surprised that I didn't conceive then.

I suppose, my train of thought is, well if it didn't work then, why would that change now?

I guess I may have to go to the GP and see what they suggest.

Thank you.

Sorry OP, what is a TOP?

Termination of pregnancy