Hard to cope after CP

[Islandermum]

Hi all,
Thought I'd put this post out there as I'm really struggling this month. Had a chemical pregnancy (hate calling it that) at 5 weeks on 20/5/19 and I'm awaiting my first period after. Tracked that I ovulated this month and I had so much hope in my heart that I might be pregnant.
Af due today and it hasn't arrived. Numerous BFNs. Im assuming I will have to wait longer for my AF this cycle to reset itself.

I am feeling really flat and down about it all. I am more desperate than ever to have a sticky one and I feel rubbish that this month hasn't happened.
Everyone talks about heightened fertility after a CP and that has made me feel pretty rubbish that it hasn't happened for me.
Don't know what help this will bring but just wanted to put my feelings out there.
Anyone in the same boat?

Hello there. So sorry you’re feeling like this. We actually had a CP (also 5 wk loss) last month after IVF and we’re finding it really hard as well. Sending you lots of baby dust and support x

Hugs. I'm not now but in April 2018 (cycle 10) I had a similar experience, and despite being upset hoped I would fall the following month because people had said you're super fertile after a loss.
Well I didn't, and I actually didn't get my BFP until November 2018. Happily I'm now 33wks.

I also foolishly piled on about 2 stone following the CP through comfort eating and disappointment.

I really hope it happens for you soon xx

Thank you to both of you. So sorry that you've had to go through something like this. I just kind of want Af to come now so I can just get on with things. I'm in terrible pain (sure it's not worse than normal pre period pains but feels worse because I'm so down about it) and just want to forget about it but I can't. I'm sure it will happen for me one day. Thank you ladies x

@Islandermum hugs.i had a CP at 5 weeks also on the same date as you. My AF was due on Sunday and finally showed up today two days late. Its just so cruel. I did 5 IC tests yesterday, thinking that it had to mean something. Maybe AF will just be a day or so late like mine was.

@Whyhaveidonethis Coincidence on the dates! I'm so sorry you've gone through this. Thank you, you gave me something to feel ok about! I'm kind of looking forward to/dreading af, so confusing!

@Islandermum I know what you mean. I kind of feel relived as I kind of knew I wasn't pregnant. The same as I knew last month that I was before i tested.