Possible chemical?!

[Sundaygirlz]

Hoping someone can help! Period due 13/2 didn’t arrive but some spotting. Had a very strong positive hpt this morning and now bleeding bright red. Does this sound like a chemical pregnancy?!

It does hun I’ve woken up to one today too. Devastated isn’t the word x

I’m so sorry to hear that. In all honesty it hadn’t sunk in and I wasn’t expecting a positive at all. This is our 8th cycle so I’ve learned to keep my expectations low. Only thing is bleeding has now stopped so I’m completely confused 🤷🏼‍♀️

This was my third chemical and we’ve been trying 17 months now so I’m getting used to the process now too it’s just horrible mine is stopping and starting too but it always does the same just tries to keep tricking you 😭💔

😢 fingers crossed it happens for you soon! The whole thing really messes with your head doesn’t it.

It’s awful and especially as I’ve been off my bipolar meds for days now since finding out I was pregnant I just don’t know what to do

Me too, I think. Have cramps all morning and brown spotting. Am gutted.

So sorry for you, @Amelia09876 - this is so much more awful than I thought it would be. Can't imagine it repeatedly. My OH is away at the moment and all I want is a cuddle.

@Sundaygirlz - I hope it's a false alarm for you. Fingers crossed.

So sorry @flyingplum people would have you believe it’s all sunshine and roses and it really isn’t is it 😞

I have a good friend who went through an awful early miscarriage that took forever to finally happen, and another who has struggle for three years with miscarriages, so I knew it could be shit and that it happens. I thought I would be more pragmatic about it, but I just feel glum and tearful. Which might also be the hormones.

We've been trying for just over a year, and I have a number of existing conditions that made me doubt i ovulated at all, and I was going to make an appt at the GPs this week...so was so happy when it seemed we'd finally done it in our own. Ah well, to the doctors it is.

Big hugs to you both - I hope you have a duvet day and chocolate and films. Xx

How are you both doing, @Sundaygirlz and @Amelia09876 ? I have never hated having period pains so much. I can't imagine how awful it must be for people who this happens to weeks and months down the line. It feels like the world has shifted under me, and I only thought I was pregnant for about three days...

When you’ve got your head around things it must be much worse, and when you’ve started to prepare. Bleeding seems to have stopped altogether so I’m really not sure what to think, just going to have to see how this week goes 🤷🏼‍♀️ Hope you start to feel better soon. X

Have my fingers crossed for you @Sundaygirlz :)

@flyingplum I’m not in a good place at all. Really really not coping this time. Hope youre okay though x

@Amelia09876 - I think you mentioned somewhere else that you have a bi-polar diagnosis? Can't imagine the raging hormones I have at the moment would be much help in that situation. Maybe give the GP a call in the morning? Don't be hard on yourself though - you are allowed to feel shit about this. Much love.

@flyingplum yeah I have bipolar, personality disorder and psychosis and I’ve been off my meds since finding out I was pregnant. Don’t trust myself at all now that this has happened my mind is already a rollercoaster but now it’s got added hormones and the devastation that I’ve now lost my third baby is killing me. Just can’t do it anymore.

Have you told your OH yet? You need to tell someone IRL. What's the procedure for going back in your meds?

I’m refusing to go back on them now. Yeah I’ve told him

Hi Amelia - your choice about your meds, of course - but please look after yourself. We're going through a grieving process, and yours is more intense than mine. Try not to let that blur with any of the effects of having been off your medication. I know it's awful, and I know it feels like it will always be awful - but it won't be. I'm sorry, I know these words sound so hollow in here. I hope your OH is able to support you in real life. Mine is in Egypt until Tuesday, and all I wanted from him was a hug. He felt so far away. But he called, and even sobbing down the phone to him felt cathartic.

Please take care and use a listening service like Samaritans if you need to talk to someone impartial xx

My heads telling me those meds are the reason I keep losing babies so I’m not taking them ever again. It will actually always be awful for me, it won’t get any better for me from here so I’ve got to make a choice now. Hopefully things get better for you though x

Have you been for any fertility investigations? No idea if it is the medication, but could be lots of other things too. I hope it works out for you 🤞

Not yet we finally admitted we needed help and went to the doctors last week. They said the fertility clinic won’t help me because of the meds I’m on. So I’ve come off them for good so that they will help us. But now this has happened I don’t really know where this leaves me x