Hi all
Im not sure what im doing, or even if its in the right thread but as i sit here alone i feel i need someone to vent/talk too.
Let me start by saying i have two beautiful little boys. my oldest is five in march and my youngest is 3, 4 in august. Four years later we would love another one, esp a girl but hey you cant pick :) All i know is im not done.
I was a nice size 12 until I had a miscarriage back in 2009 after trying for quite a while, we were referred to hospital after several blood tests it looked like i wasn't ovulating, this didn't surprise me much as Ive never had regular periods. I had my internal (ouch!!) and it turned out i was 7weeks pregnant so they had to stop. nothing else happened after that i guess it didnt need to.
Falling pregnant the second time was easy too. After i had my second child i went on to the injection, and later moved onto the pill. The weight had increased like never before and no matter what i do to bring it down it doesnt happen.
Due to the hair on my arms getting darker, and my weight never shifting i went back to the doctors to see if i could get tested for polisitic ovaries as i know from previous tests that my thyriod level is high (you know the dreaded darker hairs) and also to see if this is why im not falling pregnant or having regular periods.
I am now waiting for my period so that on day 5 i can go and have a blood test to be checked for numerous things, if this doesn't go well i will then have the internal again to see if i have polisitic ovaries. my periods arent great currently and i have no idea if this is still to do with the injection or pill, or just because of my weight or if its because i actualy have polistic ovariers and its making me crazy :(
No period yet and the pregnancy tests say no, and it hurts my head so much. I wake up and im like where are you period, i need answers. i dont have a job as my partner works silly shifts so i cant even take my mind of it. Family arent the easiest to talk to, and my partner has heard it all bless him. I dont know if im just being ungreatful as i have two lovely little boys but my heart wants another and i cant get my head around not being able to.
Anyone else know this feeling?