Ttc is so depressing

[London91]

My social media is full of mummies to be. Yes I'm happy they are having healthy pregnancies and healthy babies but just wish some of them would stop with the constant posting it's relentless. Could deal with some of it and be happy but there are a couple that just don't quit. I've had two mc in the last 15 months. I have thought about taking a cycle or two out but then the thought of wasted opportunity scares me to death. I wish I could consider taking a break but I can't. I've suffered MH issues before with anxiety and depression. I just feel my MH deteriating so much. Just trying to keep a smile on my face. Just seems like I have more bad days than good now. Feel for my DP I don't think he knows what to do with me. Part of me feels like I should go back on antidepressants but then I'm scared for any potential pregnancy so maybe its best I stay off them I dunno.

Oh I'm so sorry, in currently 'recovering' from a MMC 3 weeks ago and I'm struggling this evening too.

I have no advise that you haven't already heard, but be kind to your self

I’m sorry things are tough London.
Have you thought about having a break from social media for a bit?

@Skybrooks I'm sorry for your loses and I hope 2019 brings us both some happiness.

@Blondemother I honestly think I need to for my own sanity. I'm seriously considering it. Even just for a few weeks.

@Skybooks sorry!

A break could be a good idea, also could you maybe plan a holiday or a weekend away in the next couple of weeks?

I came off social media because it does make it harder. The scan photos are the worst because they are unexpected. I muted a few people in Instagram because of the relentless bump, nursery then baby photos. This is a time to be selfish, you don't need to see this stuff. Good luck

@Skybooks I've got a few bits coming up to get excited about. Just need to focus on those things.

@Lillyleaf I think I do. Even just for a bit till my head is straight.

I totally agree with coming off social media it's so shit and depressing seeing pregnancies or new borns. I had about 3 months off last year and was the best thing ever, I had more time was was less depressed! Sending hugs, I sympathise I'm 2 years down the line now... xx

I had a miscarriage in July. It's number two so I got the whole "you already have one" but these posts still kill me. Especially everyone now having a second child before me (I know that makes me sound horrible and jealous, but I am!) I've muted certain people on social media because I just can't take the "another one on the way", "soon to be four", "hashtag so blessed" shite. I know people are only celebrating their joys and their milestones but it's like a constant reminder.

Block, mute, delete. And be kind to yourself. You're not alone xxx

My sister in law told us she was expecting the same month I was convinced I was pregnant after 18months of trying (she’d only been trying 3 months), I wasn’t. So I took myself off as I was scrolling and anxious for the “announcement”.
It’s torture I agree. Don’t miss FB at all!

@OwlPatrol it's horrible isn't it. I've been trying for 19 months and it feels like people forget what you're going through. So I don't have many people I can reach out to.

@MyHeartIsBrokeButIHaveSomeGlue I need to definitely try being kind to myself. I keep blaming myself for both miscarriages when in all honesty I couldn't have prevented them. Regardless you want another baby. It's a lonely place to be when everyone is having babies when they want them.

@Pinkstars2501 think I need to take a leaf out of your book. As cliche as it sounds it will happen for you. Have you been to your gp and had some tests?

@London91 I’m currently going through scans/bloods for endo and there’s a 10cm cystic mass in my pelvis that may be stuck to my appendix. So probably surgery, then see where we are.

@Pinkstars2501 I'm sorry to hear that. Hopefully you'll get the surgery soon. I'd imagine that would be done quite quickly due to the size of the cyst. I had one around that size on my ovary years ago and the op was done within about 6 weeks or so. I've got suspected endo too. Was due to have a few procedures done but found out I was pregnant a couple of weeks before so cancelled it. Now I'm back to square one.

Oh I'm with you on this, also suffer with MH too!
My best friend knows were Ttc and has been pretty supportive. She's seen me in tears when AF comes. I am so desperately ready for a baby. But the other day she cements my house to gossip about her night out, to which she said she needed to go get the morning after pill and how much she would hate to be pregnant. I know that's no reason to be upset but she came here laughing about needed emergency contraception and how funny if would be if she fell pregnant with a ginger baby (she slept with a redhead) while I'm here desperately trying for any baby at all. I was about hurt that she found it so funny and I feel like I have no-one who can relate to around me!

@ShortandSweet96 I'm so sorry your friend was so inconsiderate. Chances are she probably didn't even think about how her comments might have upset you. She probably didn't think and although what she said was hurtful for you, it was probably just thoughtlessness on her part. Hopefully this year will be good to us both and we'll both get the babies we are waiting for. As frustrating as it is it'll happen and it will be so worth the wait. 💐 Xx