Just sent DH out for a pregnancy test. Heart is beating out my chest

[ridiculoushuman]

But I'm being ridiculous.

Two weeks ago went on a night out and drank more than I had in a looong time, got home merry and the rest is as you can imagine. Irrationally furious at dh since he was the sober one and didn't use a condom as we haven't sorted out longer term contraception yet. Said he didn't think I could get pg as still breastfeeding.

I think the odds of me getting pg are so slim because I haven't actually had a period yet so it would be the tiniest of chances that I just happened to ovulate for the first time around that given night.

But.... I won't be able to relax until I know for sure. A third child for us would be crazy financially etc but there is a tiny part of me saying who needs holidays and the trimmings so maybe a part of me is hoping?!!

Sorry I'm rambling. Just needed to distract myself while he's out. Hope this post isn't insensitive on here. I was a regular when I was ttc with my two but have nc'd as I've told some people in rl

No one around, I'll continue to ramble anyway. After the Friday out I had mild cramping pains on the Wednesday as though my period was about to start. Immediately I thought implantation

I'm actually embarrassed of myself. More trying to work out if it's because I actually want a third even though I know it would impact all of our lives so much.

My dh thinks I'm being crazy sending him for this test. I've told him to hide it in case he sees anyone we know

Would it matter if you were? Wee you planning more?

Good luck. I hope the result is the right one for you xx

How old is your DC2? I got pregnant while breastfeeding my just turned 1 year old, a one night miracle 😂😂. She is the absolute light of our lives!

Oh it does sound like either answer would be okay with you.

Hope you get the result you want

Good luck op. I guess you will know how you really feel about another dc when you get the result. You will be either relieved or disapointed for a negative. Or excited or devastated with a positive.

Omg! Poas i need to know!

On the positive side, it sounds like you could come to terms with either result, since you have mixed feelings. Will be here to hand hold.

Invested folk 'ere op!!

Pretty conclusive bfn

Feel emotional, relieved and sad. Would love a third in an ideal world but would never plan for one because I had two really hard pregnancies and I just don't think I could go into again deliberately. Plus money etc and all the things I'd love to do with the two I have. But....

Need to have a serious think about things.

Thanks for the support and good luck on al your journeys x

I think that's probably the best result OP, because now you have some idea on how you would feel about having a third child, without the pressure of being pregnant.

Thanks kitkat

Had a good talk there. Dh who has been adamant he wants to stop at two admitted he was starting to have thoughts about the potential of three and thinking it would be nice to have a big family- we both come from tiny families.

However we've both said if we found ourselves in that position we would make it work but practically it's for the best. I know I'm incredibly lucky for the two I have so will focus on that and next stages

Glad it’s the outcome you wanted OP.

Btw

but there is a tiny part of me saying who needs holidays and the trimmings

Stressed out parents of small children, that’s who needs holidays!

Thanks for making me laugh victory

I have a three and one year old, I should know better

You know what you need to do now OP? Book a holiday for next year.

Yes! You'll see me on the travel threads