It's mine and my partner's first time trying to conceive, as in we've been letting nature take its course for the last 3 months, but this month was the month we actually started talking about children being a reality.
this mainly been because we didn't want to get our hopes up, therefore if my period came, it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. However this month as we were actively trying, and I was 3 days late on my period, and showing what I thought would pregnancy symptoms, this morning I've woken up and my period has started and I've never felt so sad and deflated and all my life.
My partner bless him, has been really supportive but even he said he's gutted, and I feel like a failure. I know thats irrational because people can try for years without success.
It makes it worse because normally my periods are Like Clockwork, I never miss one and I'm never late so this month was the first time I've ever been late, I thought this is it! I was going to keep it to myself until I was sure but weirdly my partner asked me if I'd come on yet and his face just lit up when I said I hadn't....
Ridiculously I'm still hoping that its just implantation bleeding, which I'm sure it can't be....it's not like there's a lot but I don't even know what implantation bleeding is as I've never been through it before.
I'm just really sad... I was perfectly happy with how we were before, and if a child came into our life brilliant.. but if not that's ok,... but now it's like I had a taste of what it could be like, I had all that hope, it seemed like it could be a reality and I wanted it more than anything!!
Any tips for next month? anything we can do differently? Like I said, we were letting nature take its course but not actively trying until this month so we're both a bit clueless.
Thank you for any answers, feeling rubbish and needed to get it off my chest !!