Due af wednesday

[Crazydreamer]

I read these threads all the time but this is my first time posting anything. I'm due to come on tomorrow, I've been ttc for about 18months and this is becoming so hard, each month I tell myself I'm having all kinds of pg symptoms and I actually obsess about them, I am constantly checking my nipples and breasts to see if they are still tender and looking for the smallest change in them. It's becoming very draining as each month af comes.
But still each month I continue to tell myself this is the month, I'm in an endless cycle of obsessing, testing and disappointment. I already have a daughter, she's 13 now so I feel like I should be greatful I have a child already, which I am, but I'm with a new partner and he doesn't have kids and this is destroying us.
Anyway we really need help and prayers this month. If af comes tomorrow I'm not sure if I can keep doing this to myself.

Awh pet, thats so fustrating! Im on month 3 and thats annoying enough, i cant imagine 18months. Have you spoke to a doc or anything? Im sure you have tried ovulation kits and that? Xxxxxxx

We have an appointment at the docs a week on Thursday, I'm nearly 36 and my partner nearly 40 so we thought it was taking longer due to our age, but now we need to know for sure as we aren't getting any younger. So af is due to tomorrow and hoping and praying this time will be the month. Trying not to get my hopes up as it so heartbreaking when she comes, but it's so hard. Yip I try everything but to no avail. Hope u get lucky this month.

Fingers crossed for you that it doesnt come tomorrow!

Thanks so much, I'm trying to control the urge to test tomorrow as to avoid disappointment, thought I'd wait til fri. Xxx

Af arrived right on time that's me out this month. Oh well maybe next month and least my obsessive head will get a wee break xxx