What is my body doing? Anxious as hell.

[Frizzy1986]

So my cycle ranges from 24 to 27 days. I say ranges but it's normally either 24 or 27 days (clue says 26.5 day average)
I always get very obvious ewcm so presume I ovulate straight after and I always get slight cramps 2-3 days before af along with sore, enlarged boobs at the same time.
We have been ttc for 7 months (#2) and no luck yet. This cycle I had ewcm around CD 12, then CD 17 I had a tinge of pink in my cm for 1 day.
I then had light cramps from CD 18-23, all of which is out of the ordinary for me.
We are now on CD 26 and no breast tenderness or enlargement at all. It's like clockwork the boobs, and they've just not happened. I took a test yesterday and nothing but it all seems odd. What the hell is my body doing??

I'm rather anxious (I suffer from anxiety) as I've been looking for a new job and we talked about if we should stop ttc. Knowing that it could take ages to fall pg or to get a job it seemed silly stepping back. I then got an interview and decided we should take a break, I got offered the role this week, but due to timings I could in fact end up pg anyway. Not what I wanted at all, and I'm panicking that my new place will hate me if I am pg, but I also don't want to wish that I'm not as why would I wish away a pregnancy after 7 months ttc.
I'm a rigid planner with stuff like this and it feels irresponsible and out of character for me and I feel awful right now, as well as wondering what the f#@k is going on.

Thanks for letting me rant! I need a place to do it as my bestie had a miscarriage in March at 11 weeks and I don't want to ramble to her about it all as that feels cruel.

Oh forgot to put that I accepted the offer as its more money, better hours and I still have negative tests. Dh said I should stop feeling bad about it.

Hi op are you planning on testing this weekend? By the way I work in HR and you get statutory mat pay roughly if you conceive whilst working there so if you get the job (fingers crossed) you may not be entitled till next month x

@owlpatrol if af doesn't appear by Sunday I'll be testing again.
If I am pg I think I'll miss smp as I won't start for another month. I'll be earning more though so it'll only take me 7 months to earn more than what 6 weeks of 90% of my current pay is so should be able to survive on sma. It's more the idea that I'm letting the company down. I'm a people pleaser. I feel bad about leaving my current place and letting them down and if I'm pg I'll feel bad at the next place.
It's tough as I want to be pg but also am terrified that I am. It's typical that this is the one month where my body is changing the rules and I don't know if I am or am not.