Yet another period and losing hope...

[randomuntrainedcuntowner]

I'm 36 now, one 7 year old dd from a previous relationship, ruptured ectopic 30th September last year, been trying ever since and nothing but 2 chemicals...

Period started again last night. I was so hoping I would be one of the 70+ % that has a successful pregnancy within a year of an ectopic but alas it appears that luck is not on my side in the same way I was unlucky enough to be the 1 in 80 pregnancies that turns out to be ectopic...

I'm 36, had a CS, a laparoscopy for endometriosis, and the laparoscopy to have my tube removed, after having a pelvis full of blood. I may still have one "good" tube but who knows after all that surgery? At least my hormones seem to be fine, I have regular (as fucking clockwork) periods and hormones are fine according to bloods, ovulating etc.

DP has yet to do semen test but I assume swimmers are fine as technically have "conceived" 3 times but my useless body can't seem to hold on to them or implant them in the right place...

Just looking for tales of hope really, in crampy pain and feeling sorry for myself this morning. 😕

You've conceived three times in a year. I'm sorry that they've all resulted in losses, but three times in a year is probably slightly above average...

Sorry about that, didn't realise it was a competition, but wrong side of 35, half a reproductive system, and a history of endometriosis and several pelvic surgeries means that I may be up against it slightly on paper, sorry for feeling slightly despondent.

And sorry for feeling upset for essentially having 3 pregnancy losses.

I think what the PP was trying to say is that the fact you've managed to conceive three times is positive as it's unlikely there are major fertility problems with either of you.
You're body isn't useless. You've been through a lot. Try and take care of yourself and fingers crossed for next month.

Wow you took my post so so so wrong. I know it didn't help me either when I've had my losses for people to point out at least it showed I could conceive. Not sure why I thought you would take what was meant to be the same gentle suggestion any differently.

Not sure you want any words of encouragement. Sounds like you want to wallow (which is TOTALLY allowed!!!!!!). I will leave you alone.

Thanks for biting my head off...

Sorry OP. I don't think the pp did mean to upset you but it was insensitive! Particularly as she now acknowledges she hated hearing the same 'advice'.

It's such a painful process. Giving you and for pp too who also seems to be struggling.

@physicskate I hardly bit your head off, but still not quite sure how to take that post either, but I will accept your apology and that you didn't mean to cause offence...

Just wallowing in the bath now...

Guess I am just worrying that there might be something wrong with my tube or endometrium (my periods at ridiculously light now) and that the chemicals are a sign the sperm are getting through or maybe the fertilised egg can't, or it can't implant because my womb is shit! 😩