Me and my oh had a chat last night and decided to stop trying 😔 ive had nothing but recurrent miscarriages since we started 5 months ago and its just draining. The main factor was our son is 4.5, weve got childcare sorted by family and running perfectly, ive not long changed jobs so im full time shift work and were doing really well for finances and need to crack on and save to buy our house. My nan and grandad who are our main child carers said they wouldnt be able to start again with looking after another little one and completly understand their reasons but dont think its fair for a 2nd child to see them having our 1st and not them and be put in nursery all day. Im so torn, i know us stopping is the practical choice but i did want another baby and my boy met my friends 10week old and was so fascinated, wanting to feed, rock and hold the baby. Hes often voiced he wants a brother or sister and i feel so guilty 😔 sorry just needed bit of an outlet xx