Pregnant after miscarriage... so so scared

[CobaltRose]

Hi everyone.

My first pregnancy ended in a missed miscarriage in April. I was supposed to be 12 weeks, but a scan revealed baby had died at 6 weeks. I had to have an ERPC and it was a horrific experience both physically and emotionally.

Last Tuesday (26th June) I discovered I was pregnant again. I'm absolutely over the moon, but also terrified of another miscarriage. Part of me is scared that, because my first pregnancy failed, I must have something wrong with me

I'm not even allowing myself to get too attached to this little bean as I'm terrified I'll lose this one too I've booked an early reassurance scan for eight weeks, but I'm only four weeks gone right now, so have another four weeks of not knowing if this pregnancy is even continuing, and worrying at every little niggle or ache.

I'm happy but so so scared. Think I need a hand hold

Here for a hand to hold.
I was exactly the same after my miscarriage and all turned out great. I did manage to have a scan at 6 weeks 4 days though because I had pain which confirmed that he was at least in the right place and had a heartbeat.
Look after yourself.

@CobaltRose I'm sorry you're feeling like this but it's completely understandable. Just because it didn't work out last time doesn't mean it won't this time it's a brand new pregnancy.

I think I'd feel the same as you though, I'm really hoping those four weeks fly by for you.

I have no magic advice for you I'm afraid, just be easy on yourself there's many many reasons a pregnancy fails it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. Don't beat yourself up just because of what happened last time.

Sending a hand hold and sticky bean thoughts x

Thank you so much everyone. I know that, if I'm going to miscarry, I will regardless of how much I worry. I'm trying to take it one day at a time.

I keep taking tests to make sure they're still positive and the line is getting darker (and it is so far), but I've stopped now as it's just driving me mad, not to mention it's bloody expensive

I've been feeling quite nauseous these past couple of days, which I can only hope is a good thing.

Thanks again. ❤