My baby would have been 10 today

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In 2007 I found out I was pregnant. I went for my scan and my babies heartbeat had stopped. 17th Dec at 12 weeks I had a Meds induced (what I call) mini labour.

Today my baby would have been 10. I am almost positive I was carrying a boy.

My babies ashes are scattered in the garden of remembrance at our local crem... I just can't bring myself to go up there though. I go up there if I have a funeral to attend and I always feel a slight amount of guilt for not making that walk.

My angel baby is never far from my mind most days if not every day.

I mc my first over 29 years ago. Never forgotten.
Life sucks at times.

for you op.

I think this is the first time I have ever really spoke about it (or typed) properly as I always feel some people think 'she wasn't very far'. But it's still our babies.

Bless you a loss is a loss it doesn't matter how early or how old a person is as long you can remember them in your heart and feel that love and rememberance don't beat yourself up about not visiting the place where they are now.

My nan always used to say to me that she never wanted me to visit her grave because all that was there were her bones. Her spirit would be following and protecting me for the rest of my life. Dont feel guilty lovely, your child isnt there but his/her spirit will be with you always. X

I don't know what to say. But you are right to talk about it now, if you want to. I'm sorry for your loss.

Always in our hearts, never forgotten. 💐 👼