Made a name change.. 🙈.
I've recently been prescribed Fluoxetine for depression. I'm also TTC. I think the TTC'ing has made my low mood worse. It's like a vicious cycle because I feel like I'm so down just now because of my want for a baby and that I may not feel better until (or if I ever become pregnant). At the same time I don't know if I should stop TTC and focus on my mental health. It's a real horrible time as I don't want to feel this way and I can see myself how this is a chemical imbalance due to how quickly my mood can suddenly change. I'm in no way a 'dangerous' kind of depressed just struggling to cope a little sometimes but I've decided I needed to surrender a bit and admit to my GP i am depressed as I've never wanted to accept it before due to all the stigma surrounding it. I am a mostly happy person and my depression had mostly subsided until December last year but TTC really has got me down. Mostly due to other family related stuff (MIL won't stop going on about my BIL's partners baby due next month).DH tried to confide in her and said we Were struggling (mostly me) a bit at the moment and she came over to visit a few days later and the first thing she mentioned was ' ohhh only X amount of weeks to go for xxx. Should see her now she's really showing. How long has it been since you seen her?!' With a Sly sort of look. Then really got me with the new pampers TV ad (mother's being handed newborns for first time) again reminding me that BIL partner has all that to go through very soon etc while smiling. I felt so betrayed!
To cut a long story short I have a hospital appointment tomorrow as the doctor suspects I have potentially both PCOS and Endo. Tried to mention this to MIL but she doesn't listen at all. Either that or she deep down dislikes me.
The other reason I'm posting is that I've been sick twice this morning but I feel semi ok now. Don't have much of an appetite. I ovulated on the 12th and on Monday afternoon I had quite bad cramps (no spotting). I'm just worried that I might be pregnant this cycle! If it turns out I am I will want to stop the anti depressants immediately. Although doctor has said these are generally safe. Has anybody else found them self being sick after only two tablets? I know that's so so soon to get pregnant symptoms..
If you got to the end congrats and thank you for reading xx