Talk me into testing.... or not!

[faintlinesquints]

Bit of a long one, sorry!

Kind of accepted that I won’t be having any more dc (youngest is almost 10!) but something bizarre has been happening to my cycles over the last year or so, and I can have anything from 4-8 weeks in between.

I have lost count of the amount of times I’ve been late, taken tests, agonised over maybe lines maybe not only for af to come a few days later, and I feel sad and stupid! I’ve even posted squinters on here and had a false positive before.

My last AF now was the 20th March... so this is the longest it’s actually ever been. I have a huge bloated tummy, which would make sense if af is so late.. but I can’t help wondering ‘what if’.
I have had sore boobs but only for this last week which I do get before my period, every day I’m checking though and it’s still not here. How long do I leave it? I don’t think I can actually handle the mentality of testing again.

I can’t tell dh as he will just say I’m getting myself all stressed and worked up again, and I think he would actually be right!

Arghhh

@faintlinesquints I would definitely test in a few days - I had irregular bleeding which was nothing like my period and I had to build myself up to test because I didn't want the disappointment because I didn't want to lose the hope.
Definitely bite the bullet in a few days if you still don't come on! Good luck x

How old are you op? Could it be the start of the menopause?

@cheshem - I agree, the disappointment isn’t worth it sometimes! A few days, ok I an manage a few days!

@mrsshelby44 I had considered early menopause but I’m in my early 30s so perhaps a bit young yet - I hope.

@faintlinesquints it's really disheartening I know, I was convincing myself of things so negative tests are sad. I'm trying again in the morning with a FR one so we will see. I feel your pain though, fingers crossed.
Have you been trying long? x

Best of luck for you tomorrow @CheshEm I’ll be keeping everything crossed for you!

I feel daft saying this, as we aren’t preventing, rather than actively trying (I know, they’re the same really) we are happy with our 3, any extra would be a blessing. Besides an 18 month break we’ve probably ‘not been careful’ for around 5 years now. I tend not to go on any conception boards as if this doesn’t work we won’t be trying anything else (temping,charting,clomid etc) and I never know my cycles. I suppose though we have to draw the line at some point if it’s not going to happen.
How long have you been trying for?

Did you test today, @CheshEm?

@faintlinesquints I see what you mean, we are the same. Since Feb 2016 we tried but sort of on and off if you like - some months we actively monitored when I was due to ovulate etc and others we didn't because we both work full time and were tired.
I tested today but I don't know if I can see a really really faint line or if I'm convincing myself of something that isn't there. It doesn't even show up on photos so I do t know if I'm just wishing it was there x

When is your AF due? Post a pic if you like - love a good squinter! Wishing you luck, are you going to wait a few days and test again?
My boobs are really heavy and sore today and honestly my belly is so swollen it’s unreal, I’m really not sure if I should ask dh to get a test for me.

@faintlinesquints can you see it to the left? I can only see it when it's on a certain angle and I have to really look so I don't know if I'm just imagining it? My boyfriend said he can see it too on the test but maybe we just want the same thing too much.
I was due on on last Friday and I started bleeding but only very slightly and was brown/pink. I normally have very bad period cramps but I only had mild ones and the bleeding stayed very light and scant for the next 3 days - for context, I had no bleeding after going to sleep or anything like that to suggest a period. On the Thursday, I had my first smear and some women said they bled after it but perhaps that's just wishful thinking.
I also swear my nipples have gone darker (sorry for the info) but I'm sure of it!

Definitely do a test and keep me updated x

Have you been to the GP? Bloating and irregular periods can be signs of other things.

@faintlinesquints did you test? X

Hi @cheshem - sorry I didn’t reply to your last post there, I’ve actually been in my bed unwell all weekend! Not sure if any of it is related or if it has been a bug.
Sorry I can’t see a line on your test, it is so hard to capture slight lines on photos though - have you tested again?
I asked dh to get me a test, he told me to stop doing this to myself and I’m certainly not pregnant
I’m definitely testing this week, and will keep you updated.

@wellthisisunexpected - you’re right; I’m phoning up for a gp appointment this week, I have something else to discuss too so will most likely break down and blurt all this out!

@faintlinesquints it's fine don't worry, I hope you're feeling better now?
Some people say they see it but others don't. I definitely feel like it should be more prominent by now if I was pregnant but still clinging on to hope.
I did another one before the FRER but it was a cheapo blue Tesco one and I read to be wary of them. I'll attach a pic - can you see the middle line on it?

Do a test on the sly! my boyfriend goes mad at me because I sit and stare at the tests for ages and send myself mad! Sometimes you just have to do it and put your mind at ease x

@faintlinesquints would help if I attached it!

Oooh @CheshEm I certainly do see a line there! I’ve been like you and certainly wary of blue dye tests, but it’s cetainly looking good as you had a very possibly light line on frer too - definitely get another frer and see. You’re only 3 days past when af was due so it’s entirely possible to still be a very faint line, I honestly have everything crossed for you and sending you all the luck in the world

I feel a bit better today thank you. I’ve been having killer headaches so keep thinking it’s af on its way - but nada.
I sometimes think if I’m not pregnant this time though then there’s something seriously wrong with me with all of the symptoms I’ve been having.
Checked my clue app and this is cycle day 70.. how crazy is that!

@faintlinesquints I'm keeping my fingers crossed!! Thank you for the good luck wishes Well I was due AF not the Friday just gone, but the one before so I'm a week and 3 days overdue technically but I did bleed slightly but very irregular and not heavy at all for about 2 days. I have read mixed things but people saying IB is generally a week ish before you come on so I kinda wrote it off.
I don't know if it's even possible to be getting faint positive/negative tests if you were that far along?
I've got no children so I can't talk from my own experiences.

You should definitely test!! You never know, it could be a positive poorly, especially if you haven't come on yet! Fingers crossed for us both then sometimes you just know if something isn't right so trust your instincts with it! X

Have you tested again today @CheshEm? I honestly don’t read too much into how light or dark a test is, I know from experience that a line is a line, I swear sometimes these companies just like to stress us out so we keep buying more
On that subject... I have 2 frer coming tomorrow from amazon, so I should know for sure then. I’m not sure if I should save my mornings pee or not?

@faintlinesquints I tested again this morning and I was convinced there was another faint line but when I've come back to it after work I am now convinced there is probably nothing there. I'm getting a bit resigned to the fact it's probably a negative
But yet I'm also convinced my boobs have been really sore today but maybe just in my head.
I hope you get the result you want ! Let me know how you get on. I've given up with these tests! X

Aw @CheshEm it’s so frustrating isn’t it, sorry you’re going through this too. I’m still keeping everything crossed for you

Dh brought me some tests back from Tesco last night and I did one first thing - it was a BFN
I really need to make an appointment with the doctors, and see what’s going on. I have a horrible feeling it could be the early menopause, even though I’m still young I can’t shake feeling something is really wrong now.
I’ve still got the frer coming later on, I’ll probably do one tomorrow but I know it will be negative too. Dh was right about getting my hopes up again; I was so sure I’d see a line today, gutted.

@faintlinesquints that's my latest one, I'm driving myself mad!
You might be too early to test too, you never know. Maybe we will both have a miraculous turn of events and we will both be pregnant ha! Keeping those fingers and toes crossed.
It may just be a viral bug and nothing major, they go around lots at this time of year don't they!
Get to the doctor and keep me updated as ever!

@faintlinesquints did you re-test!? X

Hi @CheshEm - sorry I didn’t notice your last reply! How are you getting on?
I tested Thursday with frer and it was negative again, honesty so heartbreaking! I’ll try and get a doctors appointment this week - I honestly don’t understand how my boobs are so sore (and big!) I’m peeing all the time, bloated and a late period... all points to positive signs but bfn.. so confusing!
Did you test again? Still thinking about you lots! Surely one of us needs a positive test by now

@faintlinesquints don't lose hope, it sounds positive! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!!
I'm doing OK thank you, I haven't tested again since. People were saying they couldn't see the line so I just kinda accepted I was imagining it.
Haha I know, it's about time one of us was! There is still hope, keep the faith x