Depression over ttc

[keyboardjellyfish]

Sorry if this isn't the right board, I wasn't sure if I should post this in mental health or conception.

I have been TTC for a year now and am definetely developing depression. I struggled with it in my teens and it's definetely it again. Today I cried down the phone to the drs when they said it was a 2 week wait for an appointment and they ended up booking me in for an emergency appointment tomorrow afternoon. I am going to ask for meds as I'm already in therapy and it's not helping, and quite frankly I can't keep living like this. So, steps taken, all good.

However I stupidly did some googling and apparently antidepressants affect fertility? Now I'm panicking and blaming myself (??? wtf brain) for being infertile when I'm 1. not even 100% infertile and 2. it's different for everyone

Can people who have been on antidepressants please tell me happy stories about getting pregnant anyway/generally reassure me please, because I am winding myself up and I want to be able to talk at this appointment tomorrow without crying the whole way through it.

There are certain antidepressants that are considered 'safer' in pregnancy. I think those are fluoxetine and sertraline (but there may be others too). I became depressed after about the same time ttc as you and the put me on fluoxetine, which has helped a bit.

I don't think they affect fertility. At least, that's what the studies I've read have told me.

@keyboardjellyfish sorry to hear about your struggles.

I was on Citalopram 20mg the first time i fell pregnant. Went to the doctors and he told me i really shouldnt be on them as they can cause heart defects and i was to come off them. I stayed on them because i thought the dose wasnt very high and it wouldnt make that much of a difference surely.
I went to my 12 week scan and i had a mmc, the baby had stopped growing at 6wks and no heartbeat. This is my own personal opinion and many people will tell you otherwise but i will always feel like it had something to do with the tablets and i blamed myself. Stayed off them and 3mths later conceived my dd.

I am now 5mths in ttc #2 and i am really struggling. Not so much with depression but crippling anxiety which has always been the case. I was crying in the doctors last week so i know how u feel. 5 mths really isnt that long but when you.ve got severe anxiety it feels like a lifetime.
We discussed going back on anti depressants and she just said that i know the risks and the pros and cons which go with it. I have agreed not to go back on them for the time being and try other methods to relieve my anxiety however i have already made up my mind that if my anxiety gets any worse i am going straight back to taking them.

I hope your appt goes well today. Let us know what advice they give you

Thank you everyone.

@Looking so sorry to hear about your mmc.

I have been prescribed sertraline and the doctor wants to test me for prolactinoma as I brought up headaches . I've made a new thread at health for that though as I didn't think this was the place to post about it.

@keyboardjellyfish glad to hear that you went to the doctors and they have been able to give you something.

Do you feel better now after going? Did they say sertraline was fine to take while ttc/ pregnancy?

@keyboardjellyfish I believe sertraline is one of the safest and with the most evidence. Sending you hugs, I know my fertility problems are affecting my mental health in a bad way too xxx