BFN again. Anybody want to vent with me?

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Why why why do we do it to ourselves? Every month I tell myself not to get my hopes up and yet I do and then I'm desperately disappointed when AF arrives. Have just been crying in the supermarket aisle whilst buying tampons like a total loser. This is only month 7 or 8 (is it terrible that I can't remember the first month we tried?) so I know it's still early days in the long run but I'm heartbroken.

My partner suggested we buy a yearly wall calendar and 'get military' about the whole thing. Bless him. He means so well so I'm not criticising but it was such a male response. I just want to cry and eat ice cream and sit and hate life for five minutes, not faff about with sticky dots and wall charts.

It's rubbish, that sinking feeling when AF arrives. I really feel for you.

Thanks TimesNewRoman. It is. I wish you'd just get some weird green or red light come on over your head after each time you'd had sex rather than having to wait two weeks only to be disappointed!

Af came today I feel your pain, we’ve been ttc for 14 months now and I’m starting to feel a bit hopeless about ever seeing a bfp

Oh dear, I’m getting military myself. I didn’t think of it as a Male response. I just want to feel like I’m tipping the odds my way.

It’s shit though, isn’t it? Periods are pants enough without the added crashing disappointment.

Sending you lots of sympathy - hope is the absolute hardest part. AF due tomorrow/Friday and I am swinging between preemptive depression and vague hope. Month 12 for us ttc no 2. My DH is a planner and super optimistic still but I just want to crumple

@Peggyssue I'm so sorry. I totally understand losing hope. It doesn't help when I convince myself every indent and shadow is a BFP. Sometimes it feels like the tests are against me lol. Big hugs

@Battleax yes I agree that planning gives you the best chances. It's more the ugly black and white A1 poster he wants to put on the wall and manage it all with a bold sharpie that felt male to me - I'm all up for the planning. Hugs to you. I hope it all pays off for both of us!

@theworstwife the swinging is the worst isn't it? It's great that we've still got some hope going but it's also a complete sledgehammer to the heart at times. Keeping fingers crossed for you xx

So no AF for me yet, currently too scared to test as can’t take the disappointment - I’m such a wuss! Pretty sure I’m out - bad and I cramps today as I’d normally have pre AF. Fingers crossed for everyone

Same for me. Its month 6 of trying which i completely appreciate isnt long compared to many! But i had sore boobs (i dont normally get this before AF) and got my hopes up, but this morning AF arrived. I had headache anyways and topped with this i was so down and crying so ive called in sick to work and WFH instead as i couldnt face anyone today. Im the first to start trying for a baby amongst my friends too so dont feel like anyone really understands. This board has been so helpful so i dont feel so alone!

It's more the ugly black and white A1 poster he wants to put on the wall and manage it all with a bold sharpie that felt male to me

Ah. ISWYM