Slightly depressing milestones..

[Daisymalone]

Onto cycle 10 today and it has just dawned on me that had I got pregnant the first month of trying, that baby would be due now. I have a holiday booked in three weeks and there was a stage when I considered whether we would have to cancel it due to a baby arriving! Then as the months went on I thought of how I'd feel travelling if I was 6 months pregnant, 5 months pregnant, 4 months pregnant etc. If I would be struggling with early stage morning sickness. Now it's nearly here and I'm not pregnant at all. Will only just be entering the 2ww. Ttc sucks :( (sorry this was a bit of a pointless thread, just needed a little rant)

I think we all feel like that sometimes. It’s hard not to. In the time I’ve been ttc, I could have got pregnant and given birth twice. Hope you get your bfp soon

@daisymalone this is exactly the way my mind works. I have some weddings, holidays etc booked and every time I think about them it's the 'what if' of how pregnant I'd be at the time. Makes me feel very sad. DH tries to encourage me to focus on how much easier/less restrictive things are when not pregnant but it doesn't seem to help because I just want that BFP.

Yep and it sucks I should have an 11 year old by now - that's how long I've been trying for! Not used contraception once in that whole time. I do have a 5 year old conceived via ivf but even though I KNOW I'm never going to get pregnant naturally (or even with help if recent attempts are anything to go by) I still feel like this often and still get damned hopeful if a period is a day late!

Good luck to you on your journey, I hope you'll get good news soon!

@LP17 I do try to take your DH's approach too and I've really enjoyed getting drunk at weddings recently etc but I would still trade it all in for a family. It's hard because I had an early miscarriage on cycle 4 so I know I can get pregnant, just can't understand why it's not happened again. One side of my brain says 'a year is still considered normal, it's just a lottery blah blah blah' but the other side says, 'you're healthy, ideal weight, don't smoke etc and I clearly can conceive, dh must have some working sperm' so why haven't I?

Thanks everyone, I try to remember that some people have it much harder than me so I shouldn't complain x

@daisymalone it doesn't seem to get easier no matter what point you are at - I'm very sorry about your MC. We have never had a BFP (and it is relatively early days for us reslly) but it feels like forever and I worry that we are going to have problems. I don't think my stress levels are helping.

@bluebell1981 I'm sorry to hear you are having such problems. Fingers crossed something works out for you soon.

Oh hun i know exactly what you mean! I lost our first s few days after our wedding end of september, and we’d planned to go away again this september for our anniversary but i kept thinking we might have a baby by then or i might be so many months pregnant. Its so awful its horrendous but youre not alone xxx