I came off the pill in the summer immediately following our wedding and gave it 6 months to get out of my system (I had also been on acne medication that cannot be taken when pregnant due to known side effects up until the wedding, so thought it best to be on the safe side). We then ttc for 3 months unsuccessfully, skipped 2 months to avoid a due date with bad timing for us, and we are about to start trying again in May.
However in this time I have gained a lot of weight. The pill helped keep my weight (and acne) under control. I was 9 stone 12 and a size 8-10 on my wedding day and since coming off the pill (and also being in a minor car accident that has made exercise difficult) my weight has slowly crept up to 11 stone 3. I’m only 5’3 so this is overweight and moving towards obese. I gain a lot of weight in my face and neck so it really shows.
I have a lot of issues with my weight, my confidence is closely linked to my size. I think it is linked to my mums own struggles with weight. She has been obese since having children and was constantly dieting when I was a child but never succeeded in losing the weight. I was so looking forward to having a baby following the wedding and couldn’t wait to start ttc back the when I felt comfortable in my skin, but now I feel unhealthy and overweight and worry that the joys of pregnancy will be tainted by constant worries about my growing weight and that post pregnancy I will be very depressed about losing the baby weight rather than focusing on the baby. I know it sounds shallow but it is a genuine concern. I suppose I imagined pregnancy and new motherhood as being a beautiful and happy time, and I worry it won’t be the case, and blame myself for not keeping my weight under control.
I am trying to lose weight and recently joined a gym, in part because of the issues mentioned and also because I’m concerned my weight might prevent me conceiving. It would take months and months to get back to my previous weight and after skipping 2 months of ttc I dont want to skip anymore. We’re 28 almost 29 and dh has waited patiently for years for me to be ready for kids whilst I studied and began my career (he was ready at 22 and has been very patient).
Not sure why I’m posting really 
Just venting I suppose, and wondering whether anyone else has had similar issues...