The usual question - Am I? I have PCOS so...

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.... my cycles are not regular. Means I have no idea when (or if for that matter) I should test!

I have been tracking my cycles this year and, since January, they seem to be anywhere from 31 days up to 44 days.
Today is day 37

Symptoms in order of occurrence:

• Small bleed around the time implantation may have happened - though this was post sex. FWIW, I've never bled post sex before. This was on CD30

• When cuddling DP in the kitchen, an "I'm pregnant" thought popped into my head, it was really weird as I hadn't been thinking about it at all before. It just popped into my head and I had a sudden sense of warmth run through me. Kind of took me by surprise.

• Strong metal mouth, which I always get very strongly before BFP. Though I have noticed I've had it mildly before AF too.

• Insane craving for salt and vinegar crisps (but I do like them anyway), Hoovered a tube of S&V Pringles a week ago.

• On Monday I had a sudden urge for pineapple and hoovered a large tub of fresh pineapple - normally I'd start giving up 2/3 of the way through. I could have had another!

• Very vivid dreams

• 'Cotton wool mouth' coupled with the metal mouth

• Very heavy appetite - feel like I need to eat a lot more at meal times

• Watery mouth, coupled with the cotton wool mouth and metal mouth.

• I think I have a stronger sense of smell, woman in front of me in queue at coffee shop had strong smelling perfume on - would I have smelt it anyway?

• I run regularly, but the past few times have been hard work, feel tired and have heavy legs.

• Yesterday I had an achey body - like when you have the flu.

• Yesterday I had a sudden urge for fresh orange juice - downed a small bottle of tropicana - but is that because of the heat? Normally I'd drink water, I never buy juice.

• Last night I noticed a Montgomery Tubercule on my left nipple, but now I can't remember if it has always been there.. Boobs are not swollen or sore though, which is usually a sign for me

• I've just walked DS to school and had a pulling sensation low down, maybe because I need a wee, maybe period coming, or something else...

I know that the only way to know for sure is to test, but my question is when am I likely to get an accurate result given my erratic cycles?

If you think you implanted 7 days ago then you're probably ok to test now. Buy a 2 pack, do one today and one in a week.

Oh also my cervix is super high and closed

Oh cool, I'll do one now then

Though it won't be my first wee today, it'll be my second. Reckon that will be ok?

I was going to say it was all in your head and you can’t possibly know until the fresh orange juice one!! I had insane cravings for fresh orange before my BFP! Keep us posted!

BFN.
Sigh....

Will try again in a week if AF hasn't arrived in all her horrid glory.

Now I'm deliberating over having a drink drink tonight. I'm out with DP.

I had two MCs in 2016 (my last pregnancies) so I'm absolutely shitting it that if I am pregnant, I'll do some damage. I don't want to tell DP of my suspicions either

I wouldn't have a drink. Just tell DP you're feeling a bit dehydrated because of the hot weather so are going to stick to soft drinks. Or that you've got a headache or something m.

Hmm... I think I have made up every single one of those symptoms in my head.

I just read that, although the cervix is high during early preg, it should be soft. Mine is hard

dozy good advice. I will do that.

Though now I'm feeling really foolish. I should know better than to think I would be pregnant. My silly head

@sneakynamechangeforaquestion you never know! I also have PCOS and my 5 month old little boy is snoozing on my lap.

Thank you @dozy
I do already have two older children from a previous marriage so it is possible. But my body is a fickle bastard, and likes to bully me.

Updates this morning are, metal taste very mild now.

I had some very mild period like niggles over the weekend, and the smallest bit of spotting - I wouldn't have noticed it if I hadn't been symptom spotting. I thought, "Oh here we go then", and nothing.

I hate my body for teasing me like this

I'm on CD40 now. Last time I went over 40 days was last September (44 days). Although I went to 39 days in Jan.

Thing is I really need to know either way as I have to take progesterone and baby aspirin ASAP if I am, otherwise I risk another loss

We can add my favourite craving - Orange Capri Sun to the list. Water is doing nothing for my dry mouth.
Metal taste pretty strong now

If I am not up-duffed, then I am having a genuine phantom pregnancy.
I am also have hot flushes, and weeing more (but drinking but to try and get rid of dry mouth)

Left boob has the odd shooting sensation through it, and I had a cleavage when I wore my sports bra this morning - I don't get a cleavage, ever.

I thought I would tempt fate by buying a First Response test. The thinking is that it will hurry my period on a bit. Can always rely on a bit of Law of Sod.

I am now on CD41

oh and very slight 'motion sickness' type nausea.

I'm only keeping you updated because I'm tired of looking for symptoms on Google which brings up forum threads that just ends abruptly, with no idea if they found out of they were preg or not!

This thread will say either way.

When are you taking your test, OP?

I was going to wait it out until Friday. I figured that would give AF time to show up. But after the even stronger symptoms today, I'm tempted to do it again tomorrow morning. If that doesn't bring on AF I don't know what will

If AF shows up then I'll go to the dentist for this metal taste.

Although I have no mouth issues, I only went for a check up about three weeks ago! So fuck knows what it is

You do seem to have a lot of symptoms.

The "I'm pregnant" thought out of nowhere struck me... My first (and one of the only) signs I was pregnant was that I kept dreaming about taking very positive pregnancy tests.

I hope you are. Let us know how you get on.

Got my fingers crossed for you! I had ZERO symptoms all the way through, until the belly grew, so I'm useless at symptom spotting! Sounds as if you have loads though!

I worry I have too many - therefore TOTALLY making them up in my head.

CD42 and still no sign of AF - unless all those symptoms are pointing to it.
TMI - Cervix now high, soft and closed.

I was so tempted to do a test this morning but I toughed it out. I will do it Friday.

I'm just so bloody scared though. After our two losses, I keep thinking if I am pregnant then I'm worried to go out running, I'm worried to drink any coffee, I'm worried to do anything except get out of bed!
But at the same time I will feel like a twat if it turns out I am not pregnant. I also know at the back of my mind that you cannot do anything to encourage or stop a loss so running and drinking coffee won't actually do anything. But that is too logical for me.

I totally back you on waiting to test.

I'm sorry for your losses. I'm just getting over a miscarriage myself and starting to TTC again; it's a whole different ball-game than the first time round. I've been worrying in advance of what I should/shouldn't do too. Logic goes out the window, doesn't it?

It could be your body making up symptoms, I've experienced that too. Don't feel daft if it is... I think it's pretty normal on the TTC journey to go through this. BUT I really hope for you that it is a new pregnancy. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you for Friday.

Thank you @knit

I'm so sorry you've also experience such awful losses. Mine were in 2016 and still as fresh as ever. They say it gets easier..it doesn't!

I hope things work out for you, and thank you for the solidarity

Turns out my body/mind was tricking me.
Period has just started.

What a fool. As if it would be true!

I will continue to watch it happen for others daily, while I sit back and keep wishing.Two years post miscarriages, I will just have to man up.

Thank you for the hand holding.

Sorry AF arrived. You're not a fool. Early pregnancy symptoms are unfortunately very similar, if not the same as period symptoms, and when they're coupled with other coincidental symptoms it's the normal thing to wonder if they could point towards being pregnant.
Maybe you had more period symptoms this cycle because it was such a long one? No idea how that works.

If it helps to try and put a positive spin on it, this could be the first day of your pregnancy if you get pregnant in this new cycle...

Allow yourself a treat this week and indulge in something nice to cheer you up.

DP doesn't want to try again, ever. So that was my last chance.
But thank you, I appreciate your words of encouragement

It was nice to be happy/excited for a while anyway. I'd forgotten what that felt like. I've a feeling I'll be dipping back into my depression again. I need to find another Rainbow, seeing as my rainbow won't ever be a baby

I think I will hide the conception board from now on, it is too hard to see.

I wish you well