Infertility fog BACK

[Mumrule101]

Hi everyone, I'm new here!

I'm very very lucky to have a beautiful 9mo daughter. It took almost 3 years to concieve her. Those years were torture, as I know many of you can relate... everything in my life seemed to evolve around getting pregnant & I never thought it would happen, thankfully it did.

But I feel like the fog is coming back I would desperately love another child & now I'm already obsessing over the fact this might not happen. I don't know what I'm asking here... just venting. Anyone else in a similar position?

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I have two DC and while they didn't take quite as long (around 18 months each), we're starting to TTC#3 and the obsessiveness is creeping in.
I got so used to TTC needing a lot of effort, that I go full effort from the start. The fear of disappointment is there from the beginning.
Is that what you mean?
I know that I'm so lucky to have my babies, but the feelings of TTC, especially the first time around so come back up when I'm back in that world.

Hi noseringgirl thanks for your reply. I just re-read my post back & think I sound really pathetic! I was having a moment... I think it is, like you say the fear of disappointment month after month until it is all consuming! I remember how obsessed I was & I really don't want to go back to that place but i quickly have. I suppose it is definitely easier now I have my daughter though, she keeps me busy! I just wish I could enjoy the process instead of fretting & wanting it yesterday...!

Not pathetic at all! It's completely understandable. Going through the TTC process, especially long term can be quite traumatic so it makes sense that going into it again will bring back all those memories and feelings. It'll be hard not to fall back into old patterns. Be kind to yourself.