Hi all, this is a long post but i need to decide what to do quickly so if you can read it then please do! I'm in a bit of a pickle; my husband and I have a wee boy who's almost 1 but was born 10 weeks early and had a very rocky start (brain surgery etc). This had followed on from an incredibly hard pregnancy with sevear HG. So, needless to say the prospect of more kids is a daunting one but nevertheless I am certain I do want more. Since he was born we've been a little careless a few times but it's not resulted in another pregnancy (although by 'careless' I do mean pull out and pray rather than, um, anything more risky!) I'd always figured that if I were to get pregnant then we would cope.
Anyway, financially we are in a rocky place; my husband has a bad credit rating and so now we are house hunting the mortgage needs to be entirely in my name. As a result I'm just about to start back at work as a teacher half the week and an education consultant the rest of the week. I'd looked into full time teaching, and the option is there, but I far prefer my other job and do enjoy doing both so when my other work offered yesterday to put together a post specifically for me, at a good pay level, so I can get a mortgage but continue yo do both jobs (I'd previously been agency employed for this role) I was delighted! Although it does mean I can't get pregnant for a while as my mat leave allowance would only be very basic and I wouldn't get enough sick days to cover me if I got HG again. I also think it would just look really bad to get pregnant again so soon after they bend over backwards to order me this job!
However; I only found out about this job, which really is a golden opportunity, today. Last night when I thought teaching full time was my only option (something I'm far far less keen on but is mych less financially unstable and I would feel far less guilty about if I got pregant) my husband and I threw caution to the wind and were extremely uncareful...
Now I'm torn. I'm 32 and know I want another baby soon, but with this new job 'soon' means in maybe a years time. I'm not due to ovulate for another couple of days but my cycle isn't super regular so it might be sooner. Do I take the morning after pill and put work first (it would still be 48 hours after sex if I took it tomorrow eve) or do I just wing it and see what happens. Obviously if I were to get pregnant then my employer would just have to be ok with it but I definetly wouldn't look good! What if I don't get pregnant again so easily this time and I feel awful for throwing away this chance?? Should I just let fate run it's course and see what happens?? My husband thinks I should take the pill. What would you do??