Anembryonic pregnancy & miscarriage

[Ferny2000]

I spent so much time, in the middle of many nights last year, on these threads after having a surgical abortion (due to complications) at 14 weeks and now I'm posting after 7 months trying to conceive and one chemical, as I'm just sat awaiting a miscarriage after getting a BFP on new years day, the irony, thought it was to good a start to the year to be true. The 8 week scan yesterday showed nothing had developed - it feels like (am almost 39) that I only produce eggs that are chromosomally challenged. It's hard enough being disappointed every month when TTC and I thought we'd had our shit luck, but that's the only answer I've had - that it's just bad luck. I suppose I'm hoping for some light at the end of the tunnel here? Bit nervous of the miscarriage too, apparently it's not grown past 4-5 weeks so shouldn't be too bad?

Hi @Ferny2000. I saw you on another thread just now. I’m so sorry for your losses. Life is sometimes shit. And there’s no other way to put it.
Have you had tests done etc to see if there are any hormonal issues or anything? Im recovering from an erpc on 18th Jan. I opted to go surgical cos I could imagine passing the baby. I was only 8 weeks but even still. I imagine at 4-5weeks it’s just a lot of blood and a few small clots.
Be kind to yourself and give yourself and your OH time to grieve and it’s ok to not be ok. I’ve learnt that. After spending the last couple weeks holding my shit together I totally broke down last night. And actually felt a little better.
Sending massive hugs. Xx

Thanks @Cakelaur. It certainly is.
I've got a surgical booked for Weds morning if it hasn't happened by then, they wanted me to wait a week to scan again first, guess they like to be sure. Having had one at 14 weeks, at least this won't be so bad, I think I prefer the idea to miscarrying to be honest - I know what to expect at least.
Yep, you have got to let it out - that I have learnt. I just wish they could clear the streets of babies for a while when I go out - I just try to remember that perhaps their path wasn't easy either. The only positive I can find from all of this is that I think perhaps I've become a more empathetic and less judgemental person - that's something at least x

And the best of luck with your starting again too, there's always hope x