Can't stop obsessing

[SpongeCake23]

I can't stop obsessing over the fact I might be infertile 😔 it's one of my biggest fears. I feel like I might have had some sort of chemical pregnancy this month. But obviously I don't know that for sure. My hormones are all over the place and all I want is to be able to get pregnant.

I know that a lot of us are in the same boat and I know lots of women have been trying longer than me, but I still can't help fearing the worse. Especially because my periods are so awful.

I can totally understand why you feel like that. When you want something so badly it makes you fear that it'll be impossible.
Because you have this fear you need to act on it to put it to bed.
Perhaps get the ap - my cycle period and ovulation tracker. It's quite good. You put in every discharge , ache , any change. It then plots where it believes you are in your cycle. It works for my D who has very irregular periods.
Perhaps make a GP appointment to discuss your irregular periods.
Don't sit on your worry as it will become all consuming.
Stress in itself will cause problems conceiving etc so you end up in a vicious cycle.
Get a plan. Do the above , eat well , exercise. If you have a plan it will help you move on from the negative feelings.

@Dancinggoat Thanks for that. I suspect I have endo and maybe PCOS so I've been googling that constantly. Also buying my DP Brazil nuts and telling him off for drinking coffee. Spending so much money on supplements too.

My periods are regular, usually dead on 27-28 days, I ovulate around the middle of my cycle too (day 14/15) so I don't really understand what's going on and why I haven't had any luck yet.

Since TTC my periods have been much heavier and I have lots of symptoms in the build up so keep thinking maybe I'm having very early miscarriages or something. Or the womb lining in preparing but the egg isn't implanting or something?

How long have you been TTC? As you'll know I'm sure it's very normal for a couple with no problems at all to take up to a year to conceive - or in some cases even longer. It's so hard not to worry about there being something wrong but regular periods are a good sign. If you've been ttc for over a year then perhaps go and see your gp to see if you can get some tests done to check ovulation, sperm analysis etc. Otherwise other than making sure you dtd during the fertile week there's not much more you can do to guarantee success. If my ttc journey has taught me anything it's that there's often no rhyme or reason to it all.

Hugs spongecake it was always my biggest fear and now it’s a reality for me. It’s scary. But you don’t know for sure and you’ll only upset yourself if you keep thinking it without any confirmation. I know I’m infertile and I’m trying to come to terms with it. I forget how long you’ve been ttc for? Perfectly healthy couples can take up to a year to conceive when there’s no fertility issues so bare that in mind :)

@Bubblegum89 and @WelshMammy123 Next month January, will be 6 months.

You’re still very early days then. Try and just relax. If you’re not pregnant in the next 6 months then speak to your gp about fertility testing. In the meantime, just keep reminding yourself it can take a year and it absolutely doesn’t mean you’re infertile. You only have a 20% of conceiving every month. The odds are terrible! Just give yourself some time

@Bubblegum89 I know you're right, but it's hard to put it into perspective right now.
I just feel like it'll never really happen for me.

And we can't get tests until next summer when we've been trying for a year.

Have you tried ovulation predictor kits? I wasn't ovulating when I thought I was so two months of using OPKs and I got pregnant. It is really hard not to stress though. I paid for a private fertility mot which was about £300 and set my mind at ease that there was nothing obviously wrong; could that be an option?

Maybe you could pay for a fertility MOT to help put your mind at rest?

Hi,

I totally understand where you're coming from and it is very hard. I went to the docs today and now have an appointment for some blood testing next month - we've only been ttc since the summer, so not all docs will make you stay the whole year. X