Erm... wtf is going on? Please help before I cry

[Bexicle22]

My periods are SUPER regular. Ridiculously so. I have this whole routine where I will get cramps, very irritated and emotional and brown spotting 13dpo, full flow (medium/heavy) 14dpo/cd1 along with cramping, sometimes terrible cramps sometimes mild but ALWAYS some kind of cramps. Then for two days I get lighter bleeding with some brown spotting, no cramps. My periods have always been regular even when coming off long term birth control. I had my daughter 9 years ago and my periods changed from long and heavy to shorter and lighter which I heard is fairly common.

Now, I thought my periods were kind of rubbish with only having a “proper” bleed for one day but this cycle, I have never seen anything so pathetic. I’m 16dpo today. Af was due Friday. Ovulation was confirmed by positive opks and blood tests. I awaited the dreaded cramps on Thursday. Nothing. I’d had no tww symptoms like I usually have (mostly sore boobs, my boobs are totally fine not even a bit tender) which was weird. I took two FR at 12 and 13dpo cause I’m an idiot. Both negative. Af day came. My proper bleed always starts in the morning without fail. Still nothing. 9pm, still no cramps but when I went for a wee, there was the lightest brown on the toilet roll so figured this was it. Saturday morning. Nothing. About 4pm I went to the bathroom for a number 2 (sorry lol) and there was maybe 2 small drops of red blood in the bowl and an even smaller amount on the toilet roll. Still having zero cramps. Fully expecting af to show, I put a tampon in and went to stand in a cold field for 4 hours to watch fireworks. Changed my tampon when I got home expecting to see Texas chainsaw massacre proportions. All there was in the little groove at the top of the tampon was a little bit of brown cm, that’s it. SO I’m thinking okay, maybe later on. Go to pee about 1am. Wiped. Nothing at all, not even brown. Just been the toilet this morning, no cramps or anything but thought it’ll surely be here properly now. There’s nothing. Not a hint of colour.

I’m just really confused. I’ve been having periods for 16 years. I’ve been on and off birth control for 10. I have never had a problem ever. I can’t figure out if I’m just going to be really late or if those two little drops of blood was my period. I can’t be pregnant because I’ve had a bit of red blood. Right? Plus the negative FR. Plus having literally no symptoms at all. No sore boobs, no cramps, no fatigue and no crippling irritability and emotional instability all which I get leading up to and during af without fail.

I’m worried something is wrong. Would this be considered normal at all? I’m on month 11 of ttc and now I’m panicking that this weird period or whatever it is is going to hinder my chances for next month.

I have no advice. But cuddles you sound so stressed. It could be implantation bleeding? I don't really know but whatever it is I'm sure something can be done.

Take another test with FMU (first morning urine). They're not properly reliable until your period is due, so you could have just tested too early. I didn't get a + with DD until over a week after AF was due!

Red blood doesn't mean you're not pregnant. Spotting is common in early pregnancy.

Thanks for your replies ladies. I did a naughty thing this morning and had a poke around my cervix. It was medium/soft although I know CP doesn’t mean anything one way or the other. There was a tiny bit of brown cm on my finger but usually a BM or sex starts off af easily so I thought maybe a little jab would help. I felt quite wet afterwards and thought okay finally something is happening. But nope. There’s obviously “something” going on. If there’s brown cm by my cervix then that must mean af is on its way right? If I was just going to be a few days late then I could cope but it’s the weird tiny blood drops yesterday then nothing since other than a bit of brown cm. There’s no flow whatsoever. It’s so weird. I’m just so scared of negative tests!

I bled for 6 weeks after conception on and off. Very stressful time, but you could be pregnant, a few spots of blood are really common.

I know all too well that negative tests are soul destroying when ttc, but do one first thing in the morning. Good luck, I really hope it’s positive.

Okay so I just went to the loo (number two again haha) and I thought that if it’s going to happen, it’s going to happen now. So when I wiped I expected red blood. There was just light brown watery cm again. So frustrating!

MyDarling what was your bleeding like after you conceived? Was it similar to mine at all?

So I’m now 17dpo, was convinced af would be here by now but I’m still not getting any cramps and I’m only getting brown spotting on and off. If I go to the toilet, sometime getting watery brown cm when I wipe and other times I’m getting nothing or if I just wipe down there in general it’s just creamy cm but tinged with brown. I’m too scared to take a test. Would spotting last this long if pregnant? Been on and off since Friday night? I’m just so confused by the whole thing, especially as I had those random couple of drops of red blood Saturday afternoon and then literally no more red blood since!

You’ve ignored the advice given. Clearly the answer is take a test. No one can tell you what’s happening.

Sorry to be abrupt but the only way you’ll get an answer is to test.

I had a Really light bleed of brown blood. Tested. Negative. Week later still no proper period. Tested. Positive!

Well my period is here now so clearly I was right not to take a test. Thank you anyway, ladies

Sorry to hear that