It was again a mixed bag yesterday that didn't end well.
Woke up, did both a frer and a clear blue digi. A good clear (still faint) line on the frer and a "pregnant 1-2" on digi. Felt relieved.
Tested in the afternoon. Their is an outside chance it's down to my urine being diluted but I think that's me being hopeful more than anything. Only a very very light bfp. Don't get me wrong you can see it without squinting and in a dark light etc but it is noticeably lighter than the morning one and evening before.
Then panicked so broke out the Superdrug early on I bought the other day. Literally squeezed out another wee 10 mins after doing the first test and this was absolutely stark white negative. Not even a hint of a line.
So now really I'm just waiting to bleed. I'm not going to test again, it's been up and down since I got my bfp and I feel exhausted already by it. I sobbed yesterday then afterwards just thought what good is it doing worrying I can't chance the result so whatever happens will happen 😞
Praying I can get in to the drs in the morning to ask about a blood test but also about investigations as it's obvious this is now going to be the 4th failed pregnancy in a row.
I just don't get why it's happening. We had two healthy successful pregnancies, both of them were surprises!!! Then after that, boom. Miscarriage after miscarriage. So fed up with it all.
If bleeding doesn't start in the next 3/4 days I will test again but I highly doubt I'll have to worry about that xx