My DH and I have been married for 5 years now. I've been broody for the last 3 years since I finished professional exams but he's still studying his so we've waited until this year to start trying. Whilst we're only at the end of cycle 3, mentally it feels like I've been waiting a lot longer.
Early this year we had the news that my sister's cancer is terminal. We started TTC not long after that. Initially we were told 3-6 months so I knew there was only a small chance she'd know I was pregnant. But last month they extended it to 9-12 months. She was so excited that she might still be here when baby arrives. In some ways I feel like there's more pressure to conceive sooner now. In the last week, she's been quite ill and now I worry that I might not even be pg when she goes.
My head knows that things aren't always straightforward, especially as I have IVF nieces and nephew. But my heart so desperately wants it to be soon. It would be lovely to have happy news for my family after a hard 2 years.
I dont think there's much advice anyone can give. Normally I'd talk to my best friend or sister. The latter is obviously out of the question and my husband doesn't want anyone apart from my sister to know we're TTC. So this is just to get it off my chest really.